Thursday, 23 November 2023
1 Replies
595 Visits
Hello, this post is to give credibility to the gnostic medicine in the book Esoteric Medicine and Practical Magic and Divine Science and about how when we stop trying, the answer comes.
As I have entered these studies, I have studied a ton. With not enough practice to balance it, I created a very strong gnostic ego that intellectualizes everything in the doctrine. It creates a lot of suffering. Especially the non-dualistic ego because the dualistic mind cannot comprehend non-dualistic phenomena. This mind tries to control everything and even tries to not try. The battle of opposites.
I became very serious. I would not have fun at all. Would not socialize, would not smile, sincerely laugh, or cry. I was very hardened. This was also due to the ego starting to incorporate into me as my personality develops. All I would do is practice practice practice and never relax and have fun. This is false, any true master has a great sense of humor.
My mind was (and still is) a chaos. The mantra S M Hon has helped settle that storm. Overusing my intellectual center and neglecting the emotional center, I had not really cried in a couple years and felt very repressed. The Rose cure was slowly helping as I felt little sprouts of superior emotion, but I wanted to let it all out. Trying to cry, I intellectualized trying to follow my intuition to lead me to the right place and practice to do it, and it caused me to run in circles. I wanted to control everything and follow every little thing my intuition says, but in reality, was just following my mind and fear. Look at a child or baby and how they act and how effortless it is. They have not a worry in the world and just act. In reality, effortless action only comes without the mind and desire. When one acts out of selflessness, then it is effortless.
After running in circles and reflecting how I have made this same mistake many times, I decided to give up and relax instead. I prepared an Epsomepsom salt bath with the exorcism of salt in the Divine Science (Chapter: Light from Darkness) I forgot about the problem once I started concentrating on the invocation of Solomon and it all came out. I cried like a baby for an hour.
As I have entered these studies, I have studied a ton. With not enough practice to balance it, I created a very strong gnostic ego that intellectualizes everything in the doctrine. It creates a lot of suffering. Especially the non-dualistic ego because the dualistic mind cannot comprehend non-dualistic phenomena. This mind tries to control everything and even tries to not try. The battle of opposites.
I became very serious. I would not have fun at all. Would not socialize, would not smile, sincerely laugh, or cry. I was very hardened. This was also due to the ego starting to incorporate into me as my personality develops. All I would do is practice practice practice and never relax and have fun. This is false, any true master has a great sense of humor.
My mind was (and still is) a chaos. The mantra S M Hon has helped settle that storm. Overusing my intellectual center and neglecting the emotional center, I had not really cried in a couple years and felt very repressed. The Rose cure was slowly helping as I felt little sprouts of superior emotion, but I wanted to let it all out. Trying to cry, I intellectualized trying to follow my intuition to lead me to the right place and practice to do it, and it caused me to run in circles. I wanted to control everything and follow every little thing my intuition says, but in reality, was just following my mind and fear. Look at a child or baby and how they act and how effortless it is. They have not a worry in the world and just act. In reality, effortless action only comes without the mind and desire. When one acts out of selflessness, then it is effortless.
After running in circles and reflecting how I have made this same mistake many times, I decided to give up and relax instead. I prepared an Epsomepsom salt bath with the exorcism of salt in the Divine Science (Chapter: Light from Darkness) I forgot about the problem once I started concentrating on the invocation of Solomon and it all came out. I cried like a baby for an hour.
Accepted Answer
For thirty years I sought God. But when I looked carefully I found that in reality God was the seeker and I the sought. -Bayazid al-Bastami
Manifestation of the One
updated the category from
Questions and Answers with Instructors to
Questions and Answers with Instructors — 5 months ago
Accepted Answer
For thirty years I sought God. But when I looked carefully I found that in reality God was the seeker and I the sought. -Bayazid al-Bastami
There are no replies made for this post yet.