I've searched the forums for an answer regarding my situation but haven't found directly what I'm looking for. I know I'm deep in ignorance and Im still new to the teachings but im still very young and live with my parents. So my question is are supposed to openly express the teachings even though in todays society deeper spiritual talk is regarded almost like taboo (which is very sad) because I've been restraint with telling my parents and friends about the teachings because they are still very asleep and I fear out of confusion and their reaction would cause to lose the bonds I have with them. Because of this I've been rather secretive with them and this causes me to avoid them so I have time to practice and study. Now my parents have become concerned and ask what Im doing all the time and perhaps Im becoming slightly dishonest by not telling them but I feel if I drop all this information on them (like give them this website) it would be a huge impact and great misunderstanding because they lived their whole lives asleep. I realize its the aquarian age and its time to give this knowledge openly but for some circumstances this may be too much and may even cause the people you love to turn away from the teachings and you.
So should I openly tell my friends and family about the teachings and accept whatever consequences as my own karma? Should I be that open all the time even with people that aren't close to me? because Im still in high school you usually have to go with the social norm or you risk being an outcast and lose your friends and become alone, loneliness usually isnt a problem because i know my divine mother is always with me and i just accept my circumstances but this seems different than that because not only do you risk losing the bonds you had but also a chance other people to awaken BUT what if they would never get this knowledge and you were supposed to tell them..errrrrrrgggghhh. This is the predicament im in.
I've also tried dropping hints to my parents like a great master would so as for them to awaken themselves but i realize that may never happen and I cant hide from them forever. I know I should be asking my own inner being because only he knows what to do but im new and its still hard for me to know what he's trying to tell me. Im sorry for spilling out my personal problem but some guidance from someone with experience would be very helpful.
Thank you blessed people for all you do. Im eternally grateful.