As I attempt to be "awake" I am finding myself to be very confused, as well as overwhelmed at the amount of thought processing through me. I find that I can only stay vigilant for seconds at a time, then another voice (or two! or three!) comes in to distract me. I try to continuously remind myself to be present, but every time I think of this my mind has multiple things processing in it, as does my emotional brain and body, and I have difficulty managing where to put my attention (which feels like a pinball in a machine).
When I catch myself in discursive thought, is the idea to try to stop that thought and practice SOL?
Does it take a long time for this to get easier? Is it possible that I am getting totally exhausted physically by this?
Does transmuting give fuel to this process? Do you have any advice for how to not get overwhelmed by this - I feel I have opened pandora's box!
Sorry for all of the questions, and thank you so much for your help!