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  Friday, 22 February 2013
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Dearest Brother / Sister

I want to thank you for the opportunity to be able to write my letter and share my journey and struggle for understanding and knowledge with you. I will do my best to keep it short and to the point.
Since the age of 4 I have been experiencing unknown “things” – seeing Jesus, seeing Angels, seeing demons, talking to people that do not exist, having knowledge that is too advanced for a 4 year old and telling stories no one understood. A few times there was physical contact made with me – literally feeling a touch and love.

At the age of 10 I truly felt lured to astrology, chakras, the universe (space), dragons, magic and the sort. I found that I was out of my body while sleeping a few times. Two of the times I can remember clearly. In the middle of the night I spilled a glass of water in my bed while drinking it, but was too tired to get up and get a towel. The whole time I said to myself, get up to get a towel but I was just too tire and wanted to sleep, then suddenly I stood up out of bed to get a towel (and get it over with) and at the corner of my eye I still saw someone lying in my bed, when I looked, I was shocked to find myself (my body) immediately I thought to just get back inside, for I thought that I was dying, because if I am here (the life) who is keeping my body alive?

The second instance was I was the age 12, I was sleeping on my stomach, lying on my arms and as I woke to turn around, I was 2 feet in the air. Not sure if it was in my body or out of my body. My parents didn’t believe me and said I was only dreaming. I could also remember knowing that I’m dreaming and realizing I can go to where ever I want, the unexplainable feeling of freedom that moves me from the inside until this day, if I ever think about it again. I also had lots of people visiting me at night, talking to me; I just can never remember what we talked about.

Over time, I grew out of it for the people in my life mocked me and thought I was strange and also not well. I learned to ignore it and to my realisation (at this moment) my Spirit fell asleep. Ever since I was in a normal Christian life I was taught that the things I experienced was from the devil and that I was involved with witchcraft, and God hated witchcraft and I needed to beg for His forgiveness. So I strived to excel in the Christian belief and did everything in my power to get closer to God. Lately I found that I have reach that religions limits and I have sucked it dry, for I have this tremendous need to be one / united with God (a need, no one truly understands)

Now I have been having dreams, visitations and visions where I do not know what to make of them. The most disturbing is the sexual dreams, I am very loyal to my husband and the sexual dreams feels wrong, this is always some stranger (man) that wants to have sexual relations with me, but due to my love for my husband, I do not allow them (then I read that I was being attacked and need to give a chant before bed) is a chant like prayer?

The most frustrating at the moment is I can pick up what people feel and sometimes think and it drives me crazy, for I can pick up on hate, violence and anger, and when I do, I dispear and fall into a deep depression where I struggle to get out of. It happened more and more and all together I felt as if the religion I am in, can’t help me solve nor explain these things.

The Bible (with all due respect) is not enough for me anymore and to be honest, I picked up that the God living in me, is sometimes not the God I read in the Bible and that some verses are in difference with other verses (please, I speak with utmost respect if I say this, I am only looking for the full truth)

So I set out on looking for answers elsewhere, even if I have to look in places my religion warned me not to look, how can a journey / quest on becoming one, getting closer to God be harmful? The way I know Him is that He will never let any harm come to His children looking to find Him and He is in everything, through everything and around everything. This helped me to push away the fear and keep going. So I came upon Gnosis / Gnostic / Gnosticism, and the more I read the more I found answers to what was happening to me all my life. I even dreamt about Gnosis teachings where at that time I knew it meant something, but was not sure what, I just knew that I must remember it and I will one day get the answer.
Now, here is my question. I feel completely and utterly divided, I feel lost but found at the same time. I feel like I’m betraying all I ever grew up to know, but nothing felt so right to me. I feel in between Gnosis and Christianity, although I know, Gnosis was the birth of every religion. I keep hearing to study myself and not to stop meditation. But the more I study Gnosis the more shocking it is to me, how blind humanity has become and what they found themselves and made others to believe.

The part where I truly hit the brakes is at magic… a large part of me recognizes it, but due to lack of understanding, I fear it and I fear that I will literally disobey God, not in only the magic part but in talking to other gods and so on (but then Psalm 82:6 says, don’t you know that you are gods? So are we only talking to our own “brothers and sisters”) I also picked up that Jesus the Christ taught it, but did He teach magic? If I decide to take “this” I will take it with everything I have, I will excel in it and let the will of God be done. I also realize that people took some of this knowledge and turned it into evil, how do I recognize it and where do I draw the line? So please, can someone help me understand, I do not want to deliberately disobey God, I want to be reunited with Him, not that I am apart from Him, but something is not right and with the whole thing religion / divinity / separateness, something is truly wrong with the way (most treaded path) everyone is so delightedly taking like sheep unknowingly lead to a slaughter. I feel driven to find the full un-tampered truth, find God and when I have become like Christ/like God (for I believe its my birthright), I want to help others become / awaken and mature in Spirit as well (to take up their birthright). I am aware that it does not happen overnight, it needs hard work, practice and patience, but before I give my all, I need an answer and if not, please be so kind to point me in the right direction…

Thank you for taking the time to read my letter.
God bless

Karen

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11 years ago
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#3228
Accepted Answer
What you have related constitute genuine cognizant experiences within the superior dimensions of nature. These metaphysical worlds in themselves are what religions call "heavens" and are represented by the Hebraic Kabbalah, which is a map of the psyche and the cosmos. This metaphysical science is the basis of all religions and spiritual traditions, albeit in different languages and forms.

The vast majority of Christians reject the foundations upon which their teaching is completely based: the Mystical Kabbalah. Since they lack the scientific methods of spiritual investigation and knowledge of the foundations of their religion, the result is a superficial, dogmatic and blind doctrine, which Christ never taught. Christ is a Rabbi and taught the Kabbalah, especially through the phrase, "Know the Truth, and the Truth shall set you free" (John 8:32). This fundamental knowledge or direct experience is what we call Gnosis in Greek, Da'ath in Hebrew, Ma'rifah in Arabic, Dharma in Sanskrit, etc. It is the awakened experiences of the soul.

Fundamentalist doctrines preache dependence on groups and individuals rather than on God. Since they do not know how to awaken the consciousness, they in turn rely on their beliefs, which have no basis in experience. As one Initiate from England once wrote:

The Qabalistic cosmology is the Christian Gnosis. Without it we have an incomplete system in our religion, and it is this incomplete system which has been the weakness of Christianity. - Dion Fortune, The Mystical Qabalah



Such fundamentalist interpretations have caused great harm to humanity by instilling fear, prejudice and ignorance, principally by rejecting the Universal Cosmic Christ within other religions. They feel that Christ was only Jesus of Nazareth, ignoring that Christ is not a person, but a divine force, intelligence and consciousness that exists throughout the universe, and that can humanize within any individual who is properly prepared.

http://thesefantasticworlds.files.wordpress.com/2012/07/gustave_dore_dante_the_empyrean.jpg

(Dante and Beatrice before the Empyrean in The Divine Comedy)

Christ is the Multiple Perfect Unity: Gods and Goddesses, as represented in the Hebrew word אלוהים Elohim, which we find in the Book of Genesis. This word denotes a plurality within unity, since אל El is God, אלוה Eloah is Goddess, and ים "im" is plural. Therefore Elohim means "Gods and Goddesses."

If you want an example for what Christ is, listen to Beethoven's Ninth Symphony. The famous chorus, "Ode to Joy" is "Ode an die Freude" in German, signifying Froh, the Nordic Christ. While we have many singers, there exists one universal melody and harmony, which is Christ.

Therefore, remember that you have Christ within. What is important is to search for Him witin the profundities of your consciousness. As the Greek maxim on the Temple of Delphi stated, "Man, know thyself (your inner divinity), and thou shalt know the universe and its gods!"

Relating this does not mean we devalue the Master Jesus. In terms of hierarchy, he is the Master of Masters, the greatest initiate who has ever come to this planet. We can call him a Buddha, Angel, Master, God, etc. These are just names. While he deserves our veneration and respect, what is essential is that we comprehend what he represents in the scriptures, which is our inner divinity, the Intimate Christ. The mission of Master Jesus was to represent the Christ Principle, which we too must incarnate through this mystical path.

By knowing Kabbalah (the Burning Bush of Moses, the Bodhi Tree of Buddhism, the Lote Tree of Islam) one can properly interpret the Judeo-Christian-Islamic tradition, as well as all scriptures that have been written not by the dead letter, but in code. This code is the science of Kabbalah.

The science of awakening in dreams is well documented in all religions. You can browse some scriptures in our website on dream yoga that demonstrate with profound clarity the universality of this science, and that it is through dreams that you can come to investigate the great mysteries of life and death.

I knew a man in Christ above fourteen years ago, (whether in the body, I cannot tell; or whether out of the body, I cannot tell: God knoweth) such an one caught up to the third heaven [the Astral Plane on the Tree of Life].

And I knew such a man, (whether in the body, or out of the body, I cannot tell: God knoweth)

How that he was caught up into paradise, and heard unspeakable words, which it is not lawful for a man to utter [because one should not cast pearls before swine, as stated in Matthew 7:6]. -2 Corinthians 12:2-4



It takes great courage to pursue one's experiences of the truth. Christ never taught us that we would be at peace with others as a result of following Him. Instead, one will come into great conflict as you are experiencing:

Think not that I am come to send peace on earth: I came not to send peace, but a sword.

For I am come to set a man at variance against his father, and the daughter against her mother, and the daughter in law against her mother in law.

And a man's foes [shall be] they of his own household.

He that loveth father or mother (fundamentalist religious doctrines) more than me is not worthy of me (the Cosmic Christ): and he that loveth son or daughter (beloved fanatical beliefs and traditions) more than me is not worthy of me.

And he that taketh not his (alchemical) cross, and followeth after me (through the path of sacrifice, by awakening and receiving my commandments), is not worthy of me.

He that findeth his life shall lose it: and he that loseth his life for my sake shall find it. -Matthew 10:34-39



We hope that you find what you seek. May the most profound peace and joy reign within your heart!

Joyful in hope, suffering in tribulation, be thou constant in thy prayer.

Benedictis, qui venit in nomine Domini. Osanna in excelsis.

"Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord. Hosanna in the highest!"

11 years ago
·
#3228
Accepted Answer
What you have related constitute genuine cognizant experiences within the superior dimensions of nature. These metaphysical worlds in themselves are what religions call "heavens" and are represented by the Hebraic Kabbalah, which is a map of the psyche and the cosmos. This metaphysical science is the basis of all religions and spiritual traditions, albeit in different languages and forms.

The vast majority of Christians reject the foundations upon which their teaching is completely based: the Mystical Kabbalah. Since they lack the scientific methods of spiritual investigation and knowledge of the foundations of their religion, the result is a superficial, dogmatic and blind doctrine, which Christ never taught. Christ is a Rabbi and taught the Kabbalah, especially through the phrase, "Know the Truth, and the Truth shall set you free" (John 8:32). This fundamental knowledge or direct experience is what we call Gnosis in Greek, Da'ath in Hebrew, Ma'rifah in Arabic, Dharma in Sanskrit, etc. It is the awakened experiences of the soul.

Fundamentalist doctrines preache dependence on groups and individuals rather than on God. Since they do not know how to awaken the consciousness, they in turn rely on their beliefs, which have no basis in experience. As one Initiate from England once wrote:

The Qabalistic cosmology is the Christian Gnosis. Without it we have an incomplete system in our religion, and it is this incomplete system which has been the weakness of Christianity. - Dion Fortune, The Mystical Qabalah



Such fundamentalist interpretations have caused great harm to humanity by instilling fear, prejudice and ignorance, principally by rejecting the Universal Cosmic Christ within other religions. They feel that Christ was only Jesus of Nazareth, ignoring that Christ is not a person, but a divine force, intelligence and consciousness that exists throughout the universe, and that can humanize within any individual who is properly prepared.

http://thesefantasticworlds.files.wordpress.com/2012/07/gustave_dore_dante_the_empyrean.jpg

(Dante and Beatrice before the Empyrean in The Divine Comedy)

Christ is the Multiple Perfect Unity: Gods and Goddesses, as represented in the Hebrew word אלוהים Elohim, which we find in the Book of Genesis. This word denotes a plurality within unity, since אל El is God, אלוה Eloah is Goddess, and ים "im" is plural. Therefore Elohim means "Gods and Goddesses."

If you want an example for what Christ is, listen to Beethoven's Ninth Symphony. The famous chorus, "Ode to Joy" is "Ode an die Freude" in German, signifying Froh, the Nordic Christ. While we have many singers, there exists one universal melody and harmony, which is Christ.

Therefore, remember that you have Christ within. What is important is to search for Him witin the profundities of your consciousness. As the Greek maxim on the Temple of Delphi stated, "Man, know thyself (your inner divinity), and thou shalt know the universe and its gods!"

Relating this does not mean we devalue the Master Jesus. In terms of hierarchy, he is the Master of Masters, the greatest initiate who has ever come to this planet. We can call him a Buddha, Angel, Master, God, etc. These are just names. While he deserves our veneration and respect, what is essential is that we comprehend what he represents in the scriptures, which is our inner divinity, the Intimate Christ. The mission of Master Jesus was to represent the Christ Principle, which we too must incarnate through this mystical path.

By knowing Kabbalah (the Burning Bush of Moses, the Bodhi Tree of Buddhism, the Lote Tree of Islam) one can properly interpret the Judeo-Christian-Islamic tradition, as well as all scriptures that have been written not by the dead letter, but in code. This code is the science of Kabbalah.

The science of awakening in dreams is well documented in all religions. You can browse some scriptures in our website on dream yoga that demonstrate with profound clarity the universality of this science, and that it is through dreams that you can come to investigate the great mysteries of life and death.

I knew a man in Christ above fourteen years ago, (whether in the body, I cannot tell; or whether out of the body, I cannot tell: God knoweth) such an one caught up to the third heaven [the Astral Plane on the Tree of Life].

And I knew such a man, (whether in the body, or out of the body, I cannot tell: God knoweth)

How that he was caught up into paradise, and heard unspeakable words, which it is not lawful for a man to utter [because one should not cast pearls before swine, as stated in Matthew 7:6]. -2 Corinthians 12:2-4



It takes great courage to pursue one's experiences of the truth. Christ never taught us that we would be at peace with others as a result of following Him. Instead, one will come into great conflict as you are experiencing:

Think not that I am come to send peace on earth: I came not to send peace, but a sword.

For I am come to set a man at variance against his father, and the daughter against her mother, and the daughter in law against her mother in law.

And a man's foes [shall be] they of his own household.

He that loveth father or mother (fundamentalist religious doctrines) more than me is not worthy of me (the Cosmic Christ): and he that loveth son or daughter (beloved fanatical beliefs and traditions) more than me is not worthy of me.

And he that taketh not his (alchemical) cross, and followeth after me (through the path of sacrifice, by awakening and receiving my commandments), is not worthy of me.

He that findeth his life shall lose it: and he that loseth his life for my sake shall find it. -Matthew 10:34-39



We hope that you find what you seek. May the most profound peace and joy reign within your heart!

Joyful in hope, suffering in tribulation, be thou constant in thy prayer.

Benedictis, qui venit in nomine Domini. Osanna in excelsis.

"Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord. Hosanna in the highest!"

11 years ago
·
#3242
Dearest Brother

Thank you so much for your reply. I understand and I'm grateful for you answer, it helps me onward.
At this very moment I have these two choices infront of me:

1. The Kabballah
2. The Uransia Papers

Are these two almost the same?
I am well aware of the fact that you cannot compare something so delicate in one sentance but I would really like to know with which one I should start off with.

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11 years ago
·
#3244
I would recommend the Gnostic Kabbalah. See the resources we have available below:

Joyful in hope, suffering in tribulation, be thou constant in thy prayer.

Benedictis, qui venit in nomine Domini. Osanna in excelsis.

"Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord. Hosanna in the highest!"

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