The demon inside me is real and has a way of thinking and behaving. And the battle against it is very hard. It keeps on repeating sometimes I feel I won through comprehension but it constantly manifesting in similar situations and it's been going on for 2 years.
When my mind mechanically thinks a thought/ suggesting a thought and then I feel pain and heaviness in my heart even if it's just in imagination..
I apply the technique of non-identification, prayer of protection, pranayama, eucharist and prayer to the Divine Mother for it's annihilation. But it is so strong that I end up expressing it affecting my relationship.
This hard battle is frustrating me. I just feel I'm stagnant and trapped here. I want to purify and remove this undesirable element but i feel the techniques aren't working.
I try to consult the Tarot but I just dont have any comprehension at all what it means.
When my mind mechanically thinks a thought/ suggesting a thought and then I feel pain and heaviness in my heart even if it's just in imagination..
I apply the technique of non-identification, prayer of protection, pranayama, eucharist and prayer to the Divine Mother for it's annihilation. But it is so strong that I end up expressing it affecting my relationship.
This hard battle is frustrating me. I just feel I'm stagnant and trapped here. I want to purify and remove this undesirable element but i feel the techniques aren't working.
I try to consult the Tarot but I just dont have any comprehension at all what it means.
Hello Indignus,
The battle against our inner demons (egos/psychological defects) is continuous until all are eliminated. When we work to eliminate one, others are strengthened. Therefore, the perception of winning can indeed manifest other traits such as pride. While we are feeling confident, the ego finds a different way to drain us without our awareness. We must always be vigilant, watchful, and have a 360 view while we are doing the work of self-realization.
The key is to persevere as the road will continue to get difficult. We will be challenged with increased intensity as the more light we shine on what is hidden, the more we will see about ourselves. We all will reach a point where we choose to give up or continue the path. The feeling of being trapped or stagnant can mean that you need more time in your current state to work through the egoistic trait that requires elimination.
Continue using the techniques mentioned. I also suggest seeing your experiences objectively by analyzing your thoughts and feelings. See it for what it is.
The KEY of SOL may also help.
https://glorian.org/learn/courses-and-lectures/lectures-by-samael-aun-weor/key-of-sol
The battle against our inner demons (egos/psychological defects) is continuous until all are eliminated. When we work to eliminate one, others are strengthened. Therefore, the perception of winning can indeed manifest other traits such as pride. While we are feeling confident, the ego finds a different way to drain us without our awareness. We must always be vigilant, watchful, and have a 360 view while we are doing the work of self-realization.
The key is to persevere as the road will continue to get difficult. We will be challenged with increased intensity as the more light we shine on what is hidden, the more we will see about ourselves. We all will reach a point where we choose to give up or continue the path. The feeling of being trapped or stagnant can mean that you need more time in your current state to work through the egoistic trait that requires elimination.
Continue using the techniques mentioned. I also suggest seeing your experiences objectively by analyzing your thoughts and feelings. See it for what it is.
The KEY of SOL may also help.
https://glorian.org/learn/courses-and-lectures/lectures-by-samael-aun-weor/key-of-sol
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