Solemn Happy Greetings,
This post is broken into various parts for the sake of order and cohesion.
I feel like I am going to die once my 7-metal pentagram necklace turns completely black. Attached are the pictures of the golden 7-metal pentagram necklace that you recommended.
Obviously this is not supposed to happen. The jeweler who you know of said to ask you all about this issue. It is highly unusual. When I first got the necklace a few months ago, before consecrating it
, and during a somewhat conscious dream I had whom I assume to be a black magician send dark black energy directly into the top of the pentagram (exactly where the darkening is strongest as we can see) and then smiling deeply at me and walking away.
I have had several strong dreams in which the pentagram necklace has been confiscated by police, kissed by random people, violently attempted to be stolen from around my neck, etc. By the way, I have not fallen since consecrating the necklace about 8 months ago, which is the longest that I have remained in chastity.
To be fair, the dream of the person sending dark black energy into my necklace that took place at my grandmother's old house (the dream that is, I was physically home as usual). Could the darkening be an indication of her life-span or someone else's?
During my psychotic breakdown last year, in a negative state of psychosis, I "understood" that, like Jesus, I was going to die at 33 years old
. I just turned 32 a few days ago, and at the rate that the pentagram necklace is darkening, it will eventually be completely black around my 33rd birthday.
I feel like Faust from Boido's Mefistofoles
or Ashitaka from Miyazaki's Princess Mononoke
The third legitimate compliment to my premonitions of dying is that I struggle with suicidality, and Master Samael Aun Weor writes (somewhere) that people who kill themselves return to another life only to die when things seem to be going very well (or something like that). Things seem to be going very well since starting the Distance Learning Course
and consecrating the pentagram around January/February. Although I do not remember any previous lives, the logic follows that if I am suicidal in this life then I was probably suicidal in a previous life, and if I killed myself in a previous life then I am very well going to die now that things seem to be going very well.
I worked with the Tarot on this issue, but am not sure if it is appropriate to share answers with people about what card we get during a particular issue. The answer that I got from the Tarot is not encouraging nor indicative that I can negotiate this, but I do not really know much about the Tarot nor have an optimistic attitude about this whole situation. Is it okay to mention what Tarot card I got?
I am trying to learn to travel in the Astral body to negotiate my Mom's karma, and it seems like the perfect opportunity to negotiate the issue of my premonitions of death. I have been trying somewhat seriously for the past few months to learn to travel in the Astral, and it is not going well.
I think about all of this every day. At least with telling you, someone will know that I saw my death coming and worked hard before my death via initiation in order to pull myself out of (what I guess were) demonic initiations a few years ago. Now that I am pulling myself out of possible demonic initiations with Christic initiations, the black lodge may be cutting my life short since I am of less use to them.
The "blackening" of the "golden" pentagram could relate to Krishna, since Krishna is golden but turns black upon entering into Arjuna.
In many ways, my premonitions of dying are developing seriousness and solemnity
, since I now sense death approaching, but I still have not comprehended death to the point of being prepared for it. This was clearly shown when I died during an extremely lucid dream a few months ago. Samael decapitated me as a "prize" for overcoming temptation during the dream. It was the closest experience of death that I have had, at least that I remember, and I embraced it fully. However, upon trying to escape out of the pineal gland when my head was cut off, I saw the inability to embrace death, attachment, and fear.
That is about it. In case any of you know anything about jewelry, I copied and pasted the bulk of the email that I sent to the person who makes the pentagram necklaces. If you could provide any advice on this seemingly critical issue, I would appreciate it.
Email to 7-Metal Pentagram Jeweler on July 24
The 7-metal pentagrams that you made for us are great! Thanks again! I recently realized that mine is turning black/purple/rainbow. Attached is a picture of it.
Do you know why this is happening and what we can do to prevent it? I cleaned it with soap and water, but to little avail.
I have been wearing it in the shower. Could that be a problem? It feels like it protects me from slipping in the shower breaking something. I almost never take it off.
I had an unconscious dream just 3 nights ago of someone trying to grab the pentagram from my neck. It was around this time that the discoloration started. Could the discoloration be related to spiritual matters?
My Mom just asked me if it is possible that some demons have something to do with it, since metals of this high quality do not usually have blackening that occurs. When I first got the pentagram, before I consecrated it, I had a vivid dream of a black magician sending dark, black energy into the pentagram, then very happily smiling and deeply looking at me, then walking away. Could this be the ripening of that energy? I assumed that the sulfur blessing part of the consecration took care of that 'dark energy' put into the pentagram, but ultimately have no idea. 🤔
It looks like it got burnt, and I guess that is possible from my burning incense. Nothing comes to mind though. I have been sitting out in the Sun a lot recently and can see where it got burnt from the Sun, or is that silly?
If you could provide any advice, it would be much appreciated. Be well!