What is the problem of that case ?

You will destroy yourself. Masturbation is 100% antithetical to the teachings of all the world's great prophets and spiritual leaders, and has been condemned within every authentic religion and mystical tradition.

To the great dishonor of our humanity, masturbation has become more common than washing hands. Polemics abound, justifying this horrible vice, even when the evidence of its terrible detriments is irrefutable. The destructive nature of masturbation has been documented within our most ancient, progressive and holistic traditions, as well as through the bravery of some scientists willing to face ridicule by condemning what everyone loves.

Please refer to the following articles available on our website about this horrible vice.

I know that spelling one drop of semen like losing 40 drops of our blood but i didn't mean by masturbation to spell the semen but to just activate the sexual energy and preserve it then transmute it into creative energy to awaken the consciousness since i am single so sexual magic is not available . thanks and waiting your reply

Whether one ejaculates one's semen or retains it during masturbation, the act of copulating and arousing oneself in such a lustful way destroys the soul. Although the Brute Mercury (entity of semen) may not be lost, the other two types of Mercury, known as the Electronic Essence of the Sperm and the Mercury fecundated by Fire, are wasted through masturbation.

Remember this phrase:

Wherever we direct attention, we expend creative energy.
-Samael Aun Weor, Fundamentals of Gnostic Education

Identification with self-copulation, incited through pornographic images or self-generated arousal with lustful intentions, wastes the superior two types of Mercury or sexual energy. Fornication is more than just ejaculating semen: it is how you waste energy through lust. If you arouse yourself with lust, even without ejaculating your semen, you are fornicating horribly.

Please read the referenced articles we provided for a deeper understanding of this subject.

Ok but i want to know if-God forbid-I didn't marry for 10 years !! all that suffering years of training and working on my ego won't make me awakened ? what a frustration thing, my friend

That is not what we have indicated. You have no need to worry about being single. What is important is that you work with your ego at your level.

A practitioner can annihilate up to fifty percent of the ego as an individual. The rest must be annihilated through alchemy. Until you even reach that point, you have a lot you can do on your own. Therefore, there is no need to be discouraged with being single; that is a subjective sentiment of the animal ego.

You will be granted a wife in accordance with your works, not with your wants. In relation to the latter issue, I recommend you read what one German Initiate wrote (as referenced at the bottom of this post), since more often than naught, a person looks for a partner out of loneliness, not out of a legitimate sense of responsibility and spiritual discipline that knows how to even take advantage of married life.

Whether you are married or not, you will suffer. When you get married, you will suffer more. So? Work with where you are at in your level, and do not preoccupy yourself with these things. What is important is that you work seriously within yourself in a progressive and consistent manner. When you are ready and are capable of marriage, God will provide you with what you need.

So how many years could it take from me to annihilate my half ego till my innermost gives me my consort ?

The practical day would be : after getting back home from work chanting the om mani padme hum mantra during the distractions of the work to be productive , u take a bath and lie on the bed singing om mani padme hum and saying with low voice I E O ,U, ,A, or I E O ,A U, M S to not the neighbors think i am mad lol and then with my eyes closed (I am tired after work and a lot of energy there) settle back and set down and do my ancestors pranayama (ancient egyptians method) as ham sah for a lusty youngman will make him more lusty after sending the strong currents in those dangerous area douwn then here comes the hardest stage , self court , eliminating the ego and trying to improve the self , why u think of that person a lot ? meditate , is he better than you in something ? yes or you are cursed lol , why the image of this or that girl appears to you a lot ? oh noooo the lust and the worse the emotions , oh it is passion not love , the heart mind will be screwed , why you didn't smile at someone ? pride , but i didn't mean that , then frustration comes and i go to the website to ask you then with all tranquility you reply wait and train and you will see what we saw

What do you think brother ?

explain this to me please

"To be aroused but not ejaculate is what is called "returning the Ching." When the Ching is returned to benefit the body, then the tao of life has been realized." - Su Nu Ching (300 BC)

Finally I found that it is not bad or harmful , sex is the way for up or down.

In this book of Samael "Rites for Rejuvenation" here it comes what I meant (thanks to My guru):

Once in the leaning position, we are prepared to continue the sequence of the exercise. Here, still, we have not inhaled the air: our lungs are completely empty. Now, we continue the exercise by raising the hands in the direction of the creative organs—yet, we must not fill the lungs with air—now we perform a massage on the prostate, so that the vibration touches the prostate and the transmutation of the sexual energy is performed; we must perform a massage not only on the prostate, but we must also perform a massage with firmness upon the sexual organs. Then, as soon as we perform the massage over the creative organs, we must slowly raise the body to an upright position; thus, we straighten the body while our feet remain united and firm on the floor. Now, with the body straight, we place the hands on the waist, thus with the arms making again the shape of a jar’s handles.

Once we have performed the massage and have placed the hands on the waist, we inhale until filling our lungs with air, and sublimate the sexual energy to the brain through the channels Ida and Pingala. Then, we exhale slowly and repeat the same procedure three times.

Regarding the massages over the prostate/uterus and the sexual organs, there are three types:

a) Gentle massage upon the prostate and creative organs.
b) Moderate massage upon the prostate/uterus and creative organs.
c) Strong massage upon the prostate and creative organs.

It is obvious that for men a strong massage on the prostate and sexual organs produces the erection of the phallus, this is clear, this is how it is; this is why the third type of massage is advisable for bachelors. Thus, when the phallus is erected, the transmutation of the semen into energy is produced, which one raises to the brain.

Regarding married men, the first or second types of massages are convenient for them, nothing else; rather, the first type is more than enough since they have a wife and of course they bring the phallus to a complete erection by means of the Sahaja Maithuna.

So, here I have taught you what in the East they call Vajroli Mudra.

In the case of women, the Vajroli Mudra is the same, with the difference that women must perform the massages over their left and right ovaries and over their feminine organs—to be more precise, over the vagina or yoni. This is how the transmutation of the sexual energy takes place in women.

The same applies to the married woman, although she does not need a strong massage, only a soft one; bachelorettes need a little stronger massage in order to produce the transmutation of their sexual energy; it is necessary that that energy raises to the brain.

Therefore, it is necessary to have a great force of willpower during the Vajroli Mudra; no lustful thought must cross the mind of the student. It is necessary to control the senses; it is necessary to subjugate the mind.

When one practices the Vajroli Mudra, one needs to be concentrated on the Divine Mother Kundalini, or on the Third Logos. If one is concentrated exclusively on the sexual organs and forgets the Divine Mother and the Third Logos, then one does not sublimate the sexual energy, and one goes against the Cosmic Law.

http://gnosticteachings.org/books-by-samael-aun-weor/sacred-rites-for-rejuvenation/3073-rites-for-rejuvenation.html