From early childhood I had terrible nightmares. Mama said it would go away when I grow up. It did not happen. I was 22 when I shared my story over the internet and asked for help. I described my dreams full of violence, demons, sex, powers, water in all its forms. Since then, some people have started to follow me everywhere. It all happened in Belgrade (Serbia). These people have insulted me and broke me at every step of my life. It took about three years to completely beak me down. My dreams have deteriorated and I suffered from all the seven sins. I lost my friends, I was scared and paranoid, I was visited by demons even when I was awake and I broke up with my boyfriend whom I loved a lot. I was overwhelmed with pain.
Suddenly I felt a tremendous power flowing from my feet to my head. I had a vision of the end of the world, I talked about God, about the number 777, and a lot of things I did not understand, though I was an atheist. I felt a sharp pain in my heart. After that I started to control the clouds and rain. I was scared to death and ran into my former high school to look for my professor of philosophy who used to talk about God. After I proved him controling the weather, he told me to wait. I couldn't wait, I returned home. It took me a month and a half to lose the power.
Now, after two years I completely changed, I have become a better person and my nightmares are gone. I found this site and I wonder if I had kundalini? And if it did, was it negative or positive? I'm also interested in who were these people that used to break me.
If you can answer anything, I would be very grateful.
Suddenly I felt a tremendous power flowing from my feet to my head. I had a vision of the end of the world, I talked about God, about the number 777, and a lot of things I did not understand, though I was an atheist. I felt a sharp pain in my heart. After that I started to control the clouds and rain. I was scared to death and ran into my former high school to look for my professor of philosophy who used to talk about God. After I proved him controling the weather, he told me to wait. I couldn't wait, I returned home. It took me a month and a half to lose the power.
Now, after two years I completely changed, I have become a better person and my nightmares are gone. I found this site and I wonder if I had kundalini? And if it did, was it negative or positive? I'm also interested in who were these people that used to break me.
If you can answer anything, I would be very grateful.
Accepted Answer
The phenomenal experiences you've related do not relate to the Kundalini, since that serpentine force can only awaken through the proper practice of sexual alchemy or White Tantra between husband and wife. I cannot account for the causes of your experiences, but I must say that you should take any given impression with a grain of salt, since our consciousness, bottled within ignorance and the disparate psychic aggregates we call defects, is diluted through the wrong transformation of impressions. Even with awakened consciousness, one can still fail to perceive the true causes of phenomena (which are "things in themselves," or noumena).
My recommendation is that you be patient in understanding your experiences. Learn to reflect on what happened to you in a scientific, logical and unbiased way, since more often than naught our convictions can be founded on confusion, lack of spiritual-intellectual culture (study of the doctrine), and analysis. Have a look at the Gnostic Meditation Course and put its precepts into practice. That will help you establish the meditative discipline in order to better approach your past experiences and gain understanding, which will result in the most profound peace and health.
My recommendation is that you be patient in understanding your experiences. Learn to reflect on what happened to you in a scientific, logical and unbiased way, since more often than naught our convictions can be founded on confusion, lack of spiritual-intellectual culture (study of the doctrine), and analysis. Have a look at the Gnostic Meditation Course and put its precepts into practice. That will help you establish the meditative discipline in order to better approach your past experiences and gain understanding, which will result in the most profound peace and health.
Joyful in hope, suffering in tribulation, be thou constant in thy prayer.
Benedictis, qui venit in nomine Domini. Osanna in excelsis.
"Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord. Hosanna in the highest!"
Accepted Answer
The phenomenal experiences you've related do not relate to the Kundalini, since that serpentine force can only awaken through the proper practice of sexual alchemy or White Tantra between husband and wife. I cannot account for the causes of your experiences, but I must say that you should take any given impression with a grain of salt, since our consciousness, bottled within ignorance and the disparate psychic aggregates we call defects, is diluted through the wrong transformation of impressions. Even with awakened consciousness, one can still fail to perceive the true causes of phenomena (which are "things in themselves," or noumena).
My recommendation is that you be patient in understanding your experiences. Learn to reflect on what happened to you in a scientific, logical and unbiased way, since more often than naught our convictions can be founded on confusion, lack of spiritual-intellectual culture (study of the doctrine), and analysis. Have a look at the Gnostic Meditation Course and put its precepts into practice. That will help you establish the meditative discipline in order to better approach your past experiences and gain understanding, which will result in the most profound peace and health.
My recommendation is that you be patient in understanding your experiences. Learn to reflect on what happened to you in a scientific, logical and unbiased way, since more often than naught our convictions can be founded on confusion, lack of spiritual-intellectual culture (study of the doctrine), and analysis. Have a look at the Gnostic Meditation Course and put its precepts into practice. That will help you establish the meditative discipline in order to better approach your past experiences and gain understanding, which will result in the most profound peace and health.
Joyful in hope, suffering in tribulation, be thou constant in thy prayer.
Benedictis, qui venit in nomine Domini. Osanna in excelsis.
"Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord. Hosanna in the highest!"
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