Gnostic spouse

First of all I became addicted to Gnosticism (practical , philosophical and lifestyle) it is kind of a life challenge and an a good adventure but i am from Egypt and live there and you may know about the difference in cultures, I am a single young man so struggle a lot to apply the teaching to be honored to work with the third logos and not masturbate as having a girlfriend here is like impossible so i have to wait when I become ready to the marriage (our families here support us in money and the preparation is how to be responsible for others maybe in a certain age) then choosing the right girl is another problem , I am not meaning only the good loyal loving mature girl i mean the suitable for me now as i am not no longer a Muslim (thanks to gnostism lol) so to find an agnostic girl here open minded is very hard where marrying a gnostic woman is impossible of course , I read that I should still do the practises till the karma rewards me but how i can do the most important thing to awaken kundaliini if i am not going to do the sex magic with my spouse ? she will call me insane and may expose me and ask the divorce , what should i do in the next period of time ? remember i am in Egypt

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