I go to bed and I get these thoughts - they feel like it's coming from my higher mind or something. Like I was about to dose off, and without planning to meditate, my body just got into the meditation pose. Which I found odd. But other than that, I tend to write things down, and I start realizing what I need to improve/focus on.
I remember years back, I got high, and I had this super instinct that my now ex was cheating on me, and I found it to be true. - But I had another experience without being high, where I knew a new girl liked me at school, a gut feeling- I didn't have body language or anything to base it off of, we didn't even talk until 3 days later when someone told me she liked me. Then I made my move. - But that one didn't work out - but maybe I just needed to learn a lesson - which I learned a lot.
I enjoy weed because I love how present I feel. It feels like when I'm high, I'm more focused on inhaling and exhaling each and every single breath. I'm more focused and instead of procrastinating, I do the task that needs to be done. As sometimes when I'm sober, I tend to be in my head a lot. (Negative thoughts, thoughts about the past, etc not being in the now) When I'm high, it's like I have no brain fog at all and present in the now. I wish I can feel like that everyday without weed.
I kind of feel like it's a spiritual drug. It makes me aware of my problems more easily. I tend to write things down, as I feel like these thoughts are coming from a higher mind.
The only con, I can say is - I do get self conscious when I'm high, but I feel when I do daily meditation, it lowers. Also, I tend to want to spill, and unfortunately I spilled after a 7 day streak. I'm probably sure I can fix these cons with practice and will.
Why should I stop, if I feel like I'm benefiting from it? I'm not addicted, I can stop. I normally, smoke about 1-4 times a month and mostly for spiritual reasons.