Ayahuasca

Hi,my name is Jefferson..
My question to you is about DMT or Ayahuasca which I recently got hold of,I watched the documentaries about what it does- it takes you from malkuth to wherever your allowed to be basically in seconds,after discussion with my friends we are pretty sure whereabouts on the tree I/me ended up,I will relate the experience--straight away I saw fractals then a vibration which turned into a voice which said as my mind was recoiling 'Jefferson you wanted this, you need this'..followed by 'surrender' and again 'surrender',I could not do it, beyond me was a veil beneath me my ego and I saw the chains that tie me,in this moment I felt one angel call for another in the hope of helping me let go and again a voice saying 'surrender' then 'not even God can help you less you surrender,each word spoken to me hit the core of my being,my mind was reeling and I said almost incredulously 'Jesus christ' and a voice replied ' no Jefferson it's just you',as with the nature of DMT you only get to be in those places for 5-10 mins,the following weeks have been naught but change-internal change and some physical- I stopped taking sugar,I want to be veggie,I'm prescribed fentanyl (nearly the strongest painkiller out there)and I cut the dose in half over two weeks, thinking has changed in fact everything has changed.my question is am I cheating...