What does the tradition state in regards to processes to understanding/praying/negotiating one's true vocation, in regards to a sense of purpose in life, and being able to support oneself financially?
I am rather confused and unfortunately have no one to turn to..
I am on my third read through "the fundamentals of gnostic education", and I have some questions.. As I feel I am trapped in this fear based on the view of "security"..
I just reached the age 22 and according to the this tradition it views this as adulthood, I find myself in a really strange position in life.. I'm one of the "lucky ones", to actually get a full-time position immediately after graduating college.. I am "crazy lucky" to even have a job in my respective field of study.. and it's a position that someone with at least 5 years experience should only have.. I find myself thrust into a intensely demanding job, "that I should be thankful of", according to our societal standards, but truthfully I feel nothing but regret and distain for my job.. Because of our degenerated society, my once possessed passion of an artist, is now reduced to using my form of art to do things, like promote products that are harmful to the well being of humanity..
I feel I am too young to have a full-time job, I received this employment when I was 20, and it seems that this job could last for the rest of my life (should it be what I choose)... If I were to turn to anyone I know and tell them that I want to leave my job, they would call me crazy, because "job-security" in my field of employment, is very rare.. The job is so demanding that its stealing my life away, leaving me with very little time, if any, to develop my spiritual practices, and I find myself struggling to even retain my ability to concentrate. The law of entropy pulls me down at every moment, yet, in the past, I have tasted mere moments of astral projection, but find myself unable to achieve this again, but i know its real and I wish to discover more spiritually, but it feels like my time, is so restricted, just barely being able to keep up with physical duties...
I feel as though all I am living for, is to put money in the bank.. I have no idea why I am doing this.. I have all this money in the bank i don't need! I would feel much more satisfied with a throwaway, pointless part-time job, then I can just practice mindfulness at this menial job, that I use my physical body.. Rather then my job requiring me to be stuck inside of my mind, sitting at a desk, for hours and hours.
I know that its possible to somehow be able to be able to consciously enter the astral and ask to negotiate, or comprehend this karma, but I find this practice is way much beyond me as I barely have ever been able to make it much further then the circumference of my house without losing concentration and returning to the body.. Even then, currently, for the past year, I find I am unable to get back to the point where I can even relax the mind enough to project at all..
I feel as though I am starting to discover I am living in a fear based mentality.
For example, a simple decision, like whether or not to purchase my first vehicle becomes something that I tell myself I should "wait! until I know how to understand my karma, or negotiate it somehow", as I don't want to incur more karma for supporting the automotive industry, which is destroying our planet.. But the car thing is a small example of my confusion.. I know this seems like alot of typing, but I feel maybe this will help me understand more, with insight from individuals much more practiced and able to understand this process of "reading one's own book of life", as they call it.. As I feel this is what I need to learn to do, to be able to make the proper moves, in this chess-game of life.. as now I am an adult and I know that an incorrect move at the beginning of the chess-game, can really come back to bite me, and result in the loss of the game, if you know what i'm getting at..
The whole idea of this "a problem is solved when the mind lets it go" I try doing this, but the problem in the mind always returns to my mind, because this problem IS MY LIFE, and therefore unavoidable.
I am rather confused and unfortunately have no one to turn to..
I am on my third read through "the fundamentals of gnostic education", and I have some questions.. As I feel I am trapped in this fear based on the view of "security"..
I just reached the age 22 and according to the this tradition it views this as adulthood, I find myself in a really strange position in life.. I'm one of the "lucky ones", to actually get a full-time position immediately after graduating college.. I am "crazy lucky" to even have a job in my respective field of study.. and it's a position that someone with at least 5 years experience should only have.. I find myself thrust into a intensely demanding job, "that I should be thankful of", according to our societal standards, but truthfully I feel nothing but regret and distain for my job.. Because of our degenerated society, my once possessed passion of an artist, is now reduced to using my form of art to do things, like promote products that are harmful to the well being of humanity..
I feel I am too young to have a full-time job, I received this employment when I was 20, and it seems that this job could last for the rest of my life (should it be what I choose)... If I were to turn to anyone I know and tell them that I want to leave my job, they would call me crazy, because "job-security" in my field of employment, is very rare.. The job is so demanding that its stealing my life away, leaving me with very little time, if any, to develop my spiritual practices, and I find myself struggling to even retain my ability to concentrate. The law of entropy pulls me down at every moment, yet, in the past, I have tasted mere moments of astral projection, but find myself unable to achieve this again, but i know its real and I wish to discover more spiritually, but it feels like my time, is so restricted, just barely being able to keep up with physical duties...
I feel as though all I am living for, is to put money in the bank.. I have no idea why I am doing this.. I have all this money in the bank i don't need! I would feel much more satisfied with a throwaway, pointless part-time job, then I can just practice mindfulness at this menial job, that I use my physical body.. Rather then my job requiring me to be stuck inside of my mind, sitting at a desk, for hours and hours.
I know that its possible to somehow be able to be able to consciously enter the astral and ask to negotiate, or comprehend this karma, but I find this practice is way much beyond me as I barely have ever been able to make it much further then the circumference of my house without losing concentration and returning to the body.. Even then, currently, for the past year, I find I am unable to get back to the point where I can even relax the mind enough to project at all..
I feel as though I am starting to discover I am living in a fear based mentality.
For example, a simple decision, like whether or not to purchase my first vehicle becomes something that I tell myself I should "wait! until I know how to understand my karma, or negotiate it somehow", as I don't want to incur more karma for supporting the automotive industry, which is destroying our planet.. But the car thing is a small example of my confusion.. I know this seems like alot of typing, but I feel maybe this will help me understand more, with insight from individuals much more practiced and able to understand this process of "reading one's own book of life", as they call it.. As I feel this is what I need to learn to do, to be able to make the proper moves, in this chess-game of life.. as now I am an adult and I know that an incorrect move at the beginning of the chess-game, can really come back to bite me, and result in the loss of the game, if you know what i'm getting at..
The whole idea of this "a problem is solved when the mind lets it go" I try doing this, but the problem in the mind always returns to my mind, because this problem IS MY LIFE, and therefore unavoidable.
Accepted Answer
Meditation is the best practice for comprehending how you must act in your situation. No one over a forum can tell you what to do, but guide you back to the methods to help you acquire cognizance of your personal life and experiences. This is because the one who is managing your life is your Innermost, although you may not be aware of it. Remember that instructors are flawed, while God is perfect. Trust in Him, since He is guiding your heart and daily life for your well being, even though you may not see Him through the blindness and suffering of this process.
If you feel that your job is not for you and need to find something else, to find your vocation, you can negotiate with the Rune Not, as described in the Runes online course and in The Gnostic Magic of the Runes by Samael Aun Weor. The main thing with this practice is to offer something in return, something that you are capable of enacting as payment for the benefits received from the cosmic law. It can be anything you find valuable as a service towards humanity and something within your capacity to fulfill, otherwise the negotiation will turn against you.
I can speak from experience, having used this rune many times, that it is extremely effective. Therefore, be careful what you ask for, since you will receive it. What it requires is to fulfill the promises set forth in your petition, otherwise the contract is null and you will have to pay even more than you owed in the first place. This is not to strike fear in you, but to help you be mindful in negotiation, since Christ always fulfills His promise. Therefore, we should too.
If you feel that your job is not for you and need to find something else, to find your vocation, you can negotiate with the Rune Not, as described in the Runes online course and in The Gnostic Magic of the Runes by Samael Aun Weor. The main thing with this practice is to offer something in return, something that you are capable of enacting as payment for the benefits received from the cosmic law. It can be anything you find valuable as a service towards humanity and something within your capacity to fulfill, otherwise the negotiation will turn against you.
I can speak from experience, having used this rune many times, that it is extremely effective. Therefore, be careful what you ask for, since you will receive it. What it requires is to fulfill the promises set forth in your petition, otherwise the contract is null and you will have to pay even more than you owed in the first place. This is not to strike fear in you, but to help you be mindful in negotiation, since Christ always fulfills His promise. Therefore, we should too.
Joyful in hope, suffering in tribulation, be thou constant in thy prayer.
Benedictis, qui venit in nomine Domini. Osanna in excelsis.
"Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord. Hosanna in the highest!"
Accepted Answer
Meditation is the best practice for comprehending how you must act in your situation. No one over a forum can tell you what to do, but guide you back to the methods to help you acquire cognizance of your personal life and experiences. This is because the one who is managing your life is your Innermost, although you may not be aware of it. Remember that instructors are flawed, while God is perfect. Trust in Him, since He is guiding your heart and daily life for your well being, even though you may not see Him through the blindness and suffering of this process.
If you feel that your job is not for you and need to find something else, to find your vocation, you can negotiate with the Rune Not, as described in the Runes online course and in The Gnostic Magic of the Runes by Samael Aun Weor. The main thing with this practice is to offer something in return, something that you are capable of enacting as payment for the benefits received from the cosmic law. It can be anything you find valuable as a service towards humanity and something within your capacity to fulfill, otherwise the negotiation will turn against you.
I can speak from experience, having used this rune many times, that it is extremely effective. Therefore, be careful what you ask for, since you will receive it. What it requires is to fulfill the promises set forth in your petition, otherwise the contract is null and you will have to pay even more than you owed in the first place. This is not to strike fear in you, but to help you be mindful in negotiation, since Christ always fulfills His promise. Therefore, we should too.
If you feel that your job is not for you and need to find something else, to find your vocation, you can negotiate with the Rune Not, as described in the Runes online course and in The Gnostic Magic of the Runes by Samael Aun Weor. The main thing with this practice is to offer something in return, something that you are capable of enacting as payment for the benefits received from the cosmic law. It can be anything you find valuable as a service towards humanity and something within your capacity to fulfill, otherwise the negotiation will turn against you.
I can speak from experience, having used this rune many times, that it is extremely effective. Therefore, be careful what you ask for, since you will receive it. What it requires is to fulfill the promises set forth in your petition, otherwise the contract is null and you will have to pay even more than you owed in the first place. This is not to strike fear in you, but to help you be mindful in negotiation, since Christ always fulfills His promise. Therefore, we should too.
Joyful in hope, suffering in tribulation, be thou constant in thy prayer.
Benedictis, qui venit in nomine Domini. Osanna in excelsis.
"Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord. Hosanna in the highest!"
I still find myself too fearful to risk trying out this practice.
I feel that I'm too asleep to consider attempting negotiations,
I find myself filled with such deep desires, ego and aversions that I have yet to even come close to comprehending.
I feel I'll just cause more suffering for myself trying to work with something I don't understand. Or having the various temporary ego's inside of me, make a promise I can't hold..
I feel that I'm too asleep to consider attempting negotiations,
I find myself filled with such deep desires, ego and aversions that I have yet to even come close to comprehending.
I feel I'll just cause more suffering for myself trying to work with something I don't understand. Or having the various temporary ego's inside of me, make a promise I can't hold..
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