I find myself struggling with lust/masturbation/sex... These teachings, regarding sexual-transmutation are new and very profound to me, yet I have previously developed lustful habits that I find incredibly difficult to shake. Even knowing and being fully aware of the Great Work I must do, I find myself struggling to find the will to do what I must. I am weak in this regard. And I am ashamed of myself for this. I know I am failing... and falling.
However, I do see it as a positive that my shame is present, when it was not before. I now acknowledge I have a problem. And, it's arguable that the first step in solving a problem is in identifying that problem. Which I have certainly done. Is this a form of spiritual progress, or am I still spiritually "dead", until I follow through with chastity & transmutation?
I feel I am making progress, intellectually. And while I know this is not the goal, I do find it necessary to begin know what one must do. Hence, I press on.
I love the Lord more than I love fornication and sensual desires... At least, I think so. Or, would like to believe so. Yet, my personal actions certainly do not demonstrate this and highlight my error. They expose my fraudulence... I do not want to be a fraud.
I find myself browsing articles on "willpower", and I'm currently reading "How to Overcome Masturbation" on the Chicago Gnosis website. But I clearly lack the willpower I need to overcome this defect of mine, at present.
Can my Divine Mother help, if I pray to her for assistance? Can I appeal to Lucifer for a lighter burden?
I do not ask God, or anyone else, to do this work for me, but rather beg for the strength and wisdom to overcome this ordeal myself.
Is this measurable progress? And, what suggestions might you have for one to find the strength and will to overcome such a defect?
Thank you.
However, I do see it as a positive that my shame is present, when it was not before. I now acknowledge I have a problem. And, it's arguable that the first step in solving a problem is in identifying that problem. Which I have certainly done. Is this a form of spiritual progress, or am I still spiritually "dead", until I follow through with chastity & transmutation?
I feel I am making progress, intellectually. And while I know this is not the goal, I do find it necessary to begin know what one must do. Hence, I press on.
I love the Lord more than I love fornication and sensual desires... At least, I think so. Or, would like to believe so. Yet, my personal actions certainly do not demonstrate this and highlight my error. They expose my fraudulence... I do not want to be a fraud.
I find myself browsing articles on "willpower", and I'm currently reading "How to Overcome Masturbation" on the Chicago Gnosis website. But I clearly lack the willpower I need to overcome this defect of mine, at present.
Can my Divine Mother help, if I pray to her for assistance? Can I appeal to Lucifer for a lighter burden?
I do not ask God, or anyone else, to do this work for me, but rather beg for the strength and wisdom to overcome this ordeal myself.
Is this measurable progress? And, what suggestions might you have for one to find the strength and will to overcome such a defect?
Thank you.
Accepted Answer
To walk along the path of John it is essential, first, to know, or to attempt, the path of Peter, but to attempt it and know it with the heart - for he who attempts or knows it with the head alone is a sucker. For that one, there is no path outside the Earth.
The path of the Maya is the path of the Sun.
It is the path of intelligence that love guides.
Why did Peter die on the cross with his head to the Earth, and why did John lean his head on the Sacred Heart of Jesus?
Ponder and judge.
However, not many understand the path of Peter and they do not walk because they know not that even stones have a heart, and in this way, they do not understand the path of John either.
Few are those who understand that they are not two paths, but one sole destiny devised by the Great Hidden Lord in the highest and most sacred of the Mayab.
Man through whose veins runs the burning blood of the Maya lineage, I can tell you nothing more. —The Flight of the Feathered Serpent
For thirty years I sought God. But when I looked carefully I found that in reality God was the seeker and I the sought. -Bayazid al-Bastami
Accepted Answer
To walk along the path of John it is essential, first, to know, or to attempt, the path of Peter, but to attempt it and know it with the heart - for he who attempts or knows it with the head alone is a sucker. For that one, there is no path outside the Earth.
The path of the Maya is the path of the Sun.
It is the path of intelligence that love guides.
Why did Peter die on the cross with his head to the Earth, and why did John lean his head on the Sacred Heart of Jesus?
Ponder and judge.
However, not many understand the path of Peter and they do not walk because they know not that even stones have a heart, and in this way, they do not understand the path of John either.
Few are those who understand that they are not two paths, but one sole destiny devised by the Great Hidden Lord in the highest and most sacred of the Mayab.
Man through whose veins runs the burning blood of the Maya lineage, I can tell you nothing more. —The Flight of the Feathered Serpent
For thirty years I sought God. But when I looked carefully I found that in reality God was the seeker and I the sought. -Bayazid al-Bastami
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