I have slowly been learning to accept that the majority of the people in my life are 'awake' in the sense that they have made the conscious decision to live in their mind after they die. (for lack of better word, they want to bring their personality into the afterlife, they have their own understanding that their action here and now are consciously choosen
and will cause an effect that will result in
them living in a particular world after they die, but the keynote is that always maintain their subjectivity... they know this... at least from my perspective at this moments not one person in my life has ever considered becoming objective except atheists but they have a subjective-objectivity) to me they are all sincerely mistaken. but I am also...

for example my protestant friend after death is something like everyone has a piece of land to garden and there is the heavenly Jerusalem where the throne of god is at the center. when I question them deeper about the personal experience of god it is something like Ezekiels chariot. but never I can become god, if you say to the protestant that god needs you to do work and the duty of the soul is to grow that is like the antithesis of Protestantism...

or my catholic friend idea is that they live in the same family and house but everything is less sinful and more virtuous and the light of christ shines in every house. they believe in a world of miracles. their is a hierarchy of saints and powers but everyone has a loving family or an enriched personal life. its like you pay money and you put in work now and then in heaven your investment is heavily rewarded.

a jewish friend believes that heaven is (for lack of better word) a party!

another person who is an atheist believes death as like in space, the infinite nothing of the space between two objects. in my opinion atheists are very interesting. I have never been able to understand why an atheist cant see that intelligence of space is supra personal. multiple unity. and the abstract space beyond intelligence.

anyways... each of them I have been learning is choosing to keep their subjectivity, they might give up their personality, but not their subjectivity, living in their own mind after they die and they know it, that is why they are awake... according to their logic.. unfortunately they do not consider objectivity as being possible in reality so they remain subjective.


none of them have utilized sexual energy to grow.... I wonder why do the people in my life not become black magicians? why do they reject utilizing the sexual to energy to awaken? many people in my life have lucid dreams, miracles, ghosts, etc etc.... but none of them have really ever considered that maybe there is something beyond the curtain!!!!!