I often have difficulty sustaining my energy of sexual arousal long enough to practice sexual magic. I notice that the energy is stronger or weaker depending on what is the focus of my mental attention. I'm concerned because I feel the energy is stronger when I visualise images related to the female body but I'm afraid that relying on such a visualization may be reinforcing my lustful ego. During sexual magic, I have read that I should focus my mind on drawing the sexual forces inward and upward to even doing the ham sah pranayama. But often it seems that when I focus only on pranayama visualizations like that, I loose the sexual feeling of arousal completely. On what should I focus my mind if I feel energetically weak?
To be honest, it might be that this problem is just caused by sleep deprivation. My family duties take up most of the day so I cut back on sleep a little bit to make time for practice. I read about the master Samael staying up at night for his practices so I am hoping there is a way to do all those practices and still have some energy left at the end of the day.
To be honest, it might be that this problem is just caused by sleep deprivation. My family duties take up most of the day so I cut back on sleep a little bit to make time for practice. I read about the master Samael staying up at night for his practices so I am hoping there is a way to do all those practices and still have some energy left at the end of the day.