Gnosis was started as a program in our school, it first caught my attention when my teacher talked about back masking and negative effects of the rock and modern music that I'd been listening to. Then I started to take the classes seriously and have worked on learning astral projection. I've had many astral experiences, some of them divine, others controlled by ego, but I do not give up...
Recently I've been reading a lot of samael sun weor's books, and going many enlightening pieces of k knowledge and I found an aim to go to the white lodge... But since he also mentioned the black lodge and the dangerous illusions that my mind can be tricked into, I'm very afraid of going there... Instead of affirming I want the white lodge I end up saying I don't want the black lodge...its like harry potter was constantly sating "not Slytherin"...
All this negativity negative organisations force me to fear them and ultimately occupy my mind...
Knowing all this, how can I let go and be positive and protected.. How do I know that I will not be tricked??, I want to develop ,but this is holding me back!!! I'd really appreciate the help.
All the information on the internet is really confusing!!and the videos really misleading..