In this life, I have been a very great fornicator with a multitude of women, acting on impulse without awareness, giving in to my inner behemoth. I understand from the teachings that when one is sexually connected with a woman, there is a transference of ego, a flow of poison that corrupts both parties.
Have I taken on the egos of all the women I've known? Have I taken on the egos of all the men they have previously known? This is my understanding. My real question is, how great of a karma is such a thing? How greatly has my personal Satan been strengthened? How greatly has promiscuity altered my psyche? To what degree does their ego mix with my own? And finally, the weight of these actions feels heavy on me. Any words of encouragement or advice as I continue to walk?
Thank you, brothers, for your wisdom.
Have I taken on the egos of all the women I've known? Have I taken on the egos of all the men they have previously known? This is my understanding. My real question is, how great of a karma is such a thing? How greatly has my personal Satan been strengthened? How greatly has promiscuity altered my psyche? To what degree does their ego mix with my own? And finally, the weight of these actions feels heavy on me. Any words of encouragement or advice as I continue to walk?
Thank you, brothers, for your wisdom.