I guess I'm not stating my question clearly.</p>
As I attempt to live life awake, many things that seemed to hold importance no longer do. So much of life is trivial matters to keep us busy. No matter what I look at, it all seems trivial. Yes I could 'busy myself' with esoteric excercises. But I know that at a certain point, I'm just trading one business for another.
When I think about things like my job, hobbies, reading, etc, I have no desire. It seems like in some ways this is in line with the goal of eliminating the 'I'.
I have no pre-concieved notion of what it means to dwell without the I, so it seems empty. It brings to mind the concept of 'void'.
Is there a point in which this void becomes filled with the being? Or do you just continue with the emptiness becoming more of reality since everything is futility.
I know I can pray and ask my being. But I do appreciate another person's perspective.
I'm not sad, and I do appreciate the beauty of life. I just don't feel like a participant any longer.
As I attempt to live life awake, many things that seemed to hold importance no longer do. So much of life is trivial matters to keep us busy. No matter what I look at, it all seems trivial. Yes I could 'busy myself' with esoteric excercises. But I know that at a certain point, I'm just trading one business for another.
When I think about things like my job, hobbies, reading, etc, I have no desire. It seems like in some ways this is in line with the goal of eliminating the 'I'.
I have no pre-concieved notion of what it means to dwell without the I, so it seems empty. It brings to mind the concept of 'void'.
Is there a point in which this void becomes filled with the being? Or do you just continue with the emptiness becoming more of reality since everything is futility.
I know I can pray and ask my being. But I do appreciate another person's perspective.
I'm not sad, and I do appreciate the beauty of life. I just don't feel like a participant any longer.