Affliction of Lust,
One of my first childhood memory's is this affliction.
Caught in very compromising situation with a friend at the age of 3 by her mother at my home.
I know it's hard to believe and I obviously had no understanding
albeit conscious understanding of sex at that age.
Traumatised by her mother's voice threatening to call the police on me.
it has been biting at me until now the age of 46.
Up until recently I've allowed it to dominate the majority of my life's decisions. I don't know if it was something I manifested, some sort of karma that followed me from a previous life or a bewitchment/ curse.
I did however find this set of lectures very illuminating as I have consciously chosen to learn how to cleanse myself of the want that I allow to perpetuate my suffering.
How can I find out:
the how,
the why,
the when,
the where,
i feel the need to identify it in order to remove it.
Not looking for pity, I own and acknowledge all the things that I've allowed IT to tempt me with. I feel that every time I get very close to it, it slips through my fingers just before I get to turn it around to see its face.
Any suggestions would be helpful and appreciated.
Thank you
One of my first childhood memory's is this affliction.
Caught in very compromising situation with a friend at the age of 3 by her mother at my home.
I know it's hard to believe and I obviously had no understanding
albeit conscious understanding of sex at that age.
Traumatised by her mother's voice threatening to call the police on me.
it has been biting at me until now the age of 46.
Up until recently I've allowed it to dominate the majority of my life's decisions. I don't know if it was something I manifested, some sort of karma that followed me from a previous life or a bewitchment/ curse.
I did however find this set of lectures very illuminating as I have consciously chosen to learn how to cleanse myself of the want that I allow to perpetuate my suffering.
How can I find out:
the how,
the why,
the when,
the where,
i feel the need to identify it in order to remove it.
Not looking for pity, I own and acknowledge all the things that I've allowed IT to tempt me with. I feel that every time I get very close to it, it slips through my fingers just before I get to turn it around to see its face.
Any suggestions would be helpful and appreciated.
Thank you