Affliction of Lust,
One of my first childhood memory's is this affliction.
Caught in very compromising situation with a friend at the age of 3 by her mother at my home.
I know it's hard to believe and I obviously had no understanding
albeit conscious understanding of sex at that age.
Traumatised by her mother's voice threatening to call the police on me.
it has been biting at me until now the age of 46.
Up until recently I've allowed it to dominate the majority of my life's decisions. I don't know if it was something I manifested, some sort of karma that followed me from a previous life or a bewitchment/ curse.
I did however find this set of lectures very illuminating as I have consciously chosen to learn how to cleanse myself of the want that I allow to perpetuate my suffering.
How can I find out:
the how,
the why,
the when,
the where,
i feel the need to identify it in order to remove it.
Not looking for pity, I own and acknowledge all the things that I've allowed IT to tempt me with. I feel that every time I get very close to it, it slips through my fingers just before I get to turn it around to see its face.
Any suggestions would be helpful and appreciated.
Thank you
One of my first childhood memory's is this affliction.
Caught in very compromising situation with a friend at the age of 3 by her mother at my home.
I know it's hard to believe and I obviously had no understanding
albeit conscious understanding of sex at that age.
Traumatised by her mother's voice threatening to call the police on me.
it has been biting at me until now the age of 46.
Up until recently I've allowed it to dominate the majority of my life's decisions. I don't know if it was something I manifested, some sort of karma that followed me from a previous life or a bewitchment/ curse.
I did however find this set of lectures very illuminating as I have consciously chosen to learn how to cleanse myself of the want that I allow to perpetuate my suffering.
How can I find out:
the how,
the why,
the when,
the where,
i feel the need to identify it in order to remove it.
Not looking for pity, I own and acknowledge all the things that I've allowed IT to tempt me with. I feel that every time I get very close to it, it slips through my fingers just before I get to turn it around to see its face.
Any suggestions would be helpful and appreciated.
Thank you
Accepted Answer
The ego is very old and reincorporates throughout our 108 allotted lifetimes within humanoid bodies. This would explain why you enacted such desires at an early age, since those are strong defects manifesting through your early-budding personality.
When meditating on the event, first enter and develop a state of serenity. Then visualize what happened. Do not let the mind interpret, label, or judge the experience. Analyze them with your consciousness, which knows how to intuit the inner significance of an event without intermediaries: thought, rationality, fears, aversion, fantasy, or presuppositions. Abandon your mind and learn to perceive yourself without an “I.” The meditation course you cited goes into depth for how to do this, especially throughout the sections on developing serenity. However, if you find it difficult and overwhelming to face the psychological elements responsible for the trauma, take a break and approach the memories and egos when you have some calm and stability. The magic of the roses can also supplement your meditations and strengthen your heart for facing your situation.
When meditating on the event, first enter and develop a state of serenity. Then visualize what happened. Do not let the mind interpret, label, or judge the experience. Analyze them with your consciousness, which knows how to intuit the inner significance of an event without intermediaries: thought, rationality, fears, aversion, fantasy, or presuppositions. Abandon your mind and learn to perceive yourself without an “I.” The meditation course you cited goes into depth for how to do this, especially throughout the sections on developing serenity. However, if you find it difficult and overwhelming to face the psychological elements responsible for the trauma, take a break and approach the memories and egos when you have some calm and stability. The magic of the roses can also supplement your meditations and strengthen your heart for facing your situation.
Joyful in hope, suffering in tribulation, be thou constant in thy prayer.
Benedictis, qui venit in nomine Domini. Osanna in excelsis.
"Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord. Hosanna in the highest!"
Accepted Answer
The ego is very old and reincorporates throughout our 108 allotted lifetimes within humanoid bodies. This would explain why you enacted such desires at an early age, since those are strong defects manifesting through your early-budding personality.
When meditating on the event, first enter and develop a state of serenity. Then visualize what happened. Do not let the mind interpret, label, or judge the experience. Analyze them with your consciousness, which knows how to intuit the inner significance of an event without intermediaries: thought, rationality, fears, aversion, fantasy, or presuppositions. Abandon your mind and learn to perceive yourself without an “I.” The meditation course you cited goes into depth for how to do this, especially throughout the sections on developing serenity. However, if you find it difficult and overwhelming to face the psychological elements responsible for the trauma, take a break and approach the memories and egos when you have some calm and stability. The magic of the roses can also supplement your meditations and strengthen your heart for facing your situation.
When meditating on the event, first enter and develop a state of serenity. Then visualize what happened. Do not let the mind interpret, label, or judge the experience. Analyze them with your consciousness, which knows how to intuit the inner significance of an event without intermediaries: thought, rationality, fears, aversion, fantasy, or presuppositions. Abandon your mind and learn to perceive yourself without an “I.” The meditation course you cited goes into depth for how to do this, especially throughout the sections on developing serenity. However, if you find it difficult and overwhelming to face the psychological elements responsible for the trauma, take a break and approach the memories and egos when you have some calm and stability. The magic of the roses can also supplement your meditations and strengthen your heart for facing your situation.
Joyful in hope, suffering in tribulation, be thou constant in thy prayer.
Benedictis, qui venit in nomine Domini. Osanna in excelsis.
"Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord. Hosanna in the highest!"
Thank you very much.
I shall work on the meditation and the Rose medicine.
Your guidance is much appreciated 🙏
I shall work on the meditation and the Rose medicine.
Your guidance is much appreciated 🙏
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