Dear instructors,
Me and my girlfriend who follow the path have come to a point where we are faced with a difficulty.
Ever since we started to hold the sexual force within, even though we are performing daily pranayama’s especially Ham-Sah since it’s the most potent one for us. And preform white tantra couple a times a week usually. We are faced with a big dilemma.
In the beginning it was going well. After transmutation we could feel the energy starting to rebuild in the body. Usually hunger returned and mental stillness came to set it. That was in the beginning. But months later the energy feels as if it is stagnating the entire body for us both. We feel heavier, less energy depressed. Digestion sensitivity is a big problem, we seem to not be able to digest food especially when it comes to heavier foods. Body feels colder and overall decreased metabolism and consciousness seems to be a reality.
I must also say that I am hypothyroid and not able to take pharmaceuticals since it makes me feel worse. My hypothyroid symptoms seem to get worse over time the longer I hold to the force. My girlfriend has also problems with delayed periods. So we are not healthy.
Strange thing is after nocturnal emission my body feels lighter again and digestion seems to get a boost. Mental clarity returns.
I tried and failed so many times but I seem to get stuck with my health condition that doesn’t allow the body to properly transmute the sexual force.
I don’t know what to do or how to proceed. We are both feeling very lethargic and depressed. Also all the experiences have stopped. Mediation seems also to be very hard in the state that we are in since the body feels as if it gone hypothyroid. So we are faced with this dilemma, and i am asking for help because we don’t know what to do not do we have teachers here in the Netherlands to ask for advice. Which makes us feel very sad since there is no going back to the old way.
Me and my girlfriend who follow the path have come to a point where we are faced with a difficulty.
Ever since we started to hold the sexual force within, even though we are performing daily pranayama’s especially Ham-Sah since it’s the most potent one for us. And preform white tantra couple a times a week usually. We are faced with a big dilemma.
In the beginning it was going well. After transmutation we could feel the energy starting to rebuild in the body. Usually hunger returned and mental stillness came to set it. That was in the beginning. But months later the energy feels as if it is stagnating the entire body for us both. We feel heavier, less energy depressed. Digestion sensitivity is a big problem, we seem to not be able to digest food especially when it comes to heavier foods. Body feels colder and overall decreased metabolism and consciousness seems to be a reality.
I must also say that I am hypothyroid and not able to take pharmaceuticals since it makes me feel worse. My hypothyroid symptoms seem to get worse over time the longer I hold to the force. My girlfriend has also problems with delayed periods. So we are not healthy.
Strange thing is after nocturnal emission my body feels lighter again and digestion seems to get a boost. Mental clarity returns.
I tried and failed so many times but I seem to get stuck with my health condition that doesn’t allow the body to properly transmute the sexual force.
I don’t know what to do or how to proceed. We are both feeling very lethargic and depressed. Also all the experiences have stopped. Mediation seems also to be very hard in the state that we are in since the body feels as if it gone hypothyroid. So we are faced with this dilemma, and i am asking for help because we don’t know what to do not do we have teachers here in the Netherlands to ask for advice. Which makes us feel very sad since there is no going back to the old way.