Thank you so much for taking your time… every day you all answer questions. The readings you recommend are always on point. I just am really grateful for this school. Anyways…
I read through some of the text and found the answer to my question.
“The vital body has four ethers - first, the “chemical ether;” …
The second ether is the “ether of life,”..,
The third ether is called the “luminous ether,”…
And the fourth ether, that is called the “reflecting ether,”…
It’s as if I am able, while meditating, to travel around the first 2 vital ethers but not the second two. I understand that the other bodies are reflected in the ether or vital body, so maybe I understand the 4th ether. And also I am barely able to observe the mental and emotional, I always get identified and then come back ( even as I type this
But i am still all within the physical body. This is the lesson I think have just learned. I thought I was special and was leaving the physical body. But I haven’t, well not on my own will. So is there is a chemical element of the mental and emotional body? ( I’m not sure how to phrase that.)
Apropos, I have awoken in dreams. But it seems like I am afraid to be an individual. A solar man. A warrior. I think it is related to the causal world. It’s like I’m knocking at that door and I don’t want to open it because I have to face the truth, that I am responsible for everything in my life.
Any recommended reading for that? (With all due respect) Or any personal thoughts? I haven’t finished reading the last one you sent. ( Because I just realized the depth that master samael consciously puts into his sentences. His comprehension of all of this is dumbfounding and wonderful. I know the instructors say it all the time , but I experienced it for myself when I realized that this one paragraph, using simple words, explains the whole teaching. It’s just levels upon levels of understanding set up so each student can understand at their own level. But when you meditate on it you realize that he is referring to something way deeper.)
Thanks for the love and support.