Hello everyone,
I wanted to have some guidance regarding recent "experience".
I was meditating recently and before going to sleep I plead my Being, my Divine Mother and the Masters of White Lodge for some help. I became sick and tired of my life, of all my egos messing everything up, etc. I also reached out to Samael Logos to help me become more "warrior" alike. To teach me to become one (I was always very "soft" since childhood, very delicate, gentle and etc. by nature).
I put my thumb and index fingers (extended those) while putting them on my sides (where rig cage is) while chanting mantra "Tai Re Re" for a few minutes. Something inside felt like I should do it like this. Maybe old memory of this technique from distant times. Then I chanted Belilin for an half an hour or more (did not record passage of time as it was irrelevent).
Then had my dinner, etc. Went to bed early. As usual failing to fall asleep on my back (I struggle for maybe couple of more years now) due to snoring/closing my throat when falling asleep this way.
---[*] Any suggestions regarding snoring would be great as I tried different pillows, towel under my neck, putting head to side, etc. Nothing works.
So I fell asleep in Lions Pose as usual. Which does not help me to astral project as I fall asleep this way due to medication I take. Only way I can not fall asleep quickly (being conscious at those moments) is on my back, which is impossible recent years.[*]--- This was answered in different topic
So anyway I "woke up" a bit during my sleep feeling "hot sphere" in the center of my back (solar plexus area) and a bit in front. I felt, I knew, some master was working on me. But.
Because I was barely conscious at that moment (my body still asleep, and mind was more or less asleep too) I felt like one of my egos of lust approached, tried to say something and that moment Master working on me withdrew.
I understand that performing such tasks (when Masters are performing) is fundamental that no ego intervenes and that when egos do intervene it is better to stop doing "those specific magical tasks" so not to fortify those egos or even worse, like converting one into a vampire or something of the sorts (I know it's not the way you become a vampire etc, I am just using it as a reference). Even tho I understand this I can't help but feel like I screwed up even though I was not trying to.
Would it be ok to continue my rites so to try to get help again, or would it be disrespectful towards Masters after my ego so masterfully screwed everything up?
Thanks!
I wanted to have some guidance regarding recent "experience".
I was meditating recently and before going to sleep I plead my Being, my Divine Mother and the Masters of White Lodge for some help. I became sick and tired of my life, of all my egos messing everything up, etc. I also reached out to Samael Logos to help me become more "warrior" alike. To teach me to become one (I was always very "soft" since childhood, very delicate, gentle and etc. by nature).
I put my thumb and index fingers (extended those) while putting them on my sides (where rig cage is) while chanting mantra "Tai Re Re" for a few minutes. Something inside felt like I should do it like this. Maybe old memory of this technique from distant times. Then I chanted Belilin for an half an hour or more (did not record passage of time as it was irrelevent).
Then had my dinner, etc. Went to bed early. As usual failing to fall asleep on my back (I struggle for maybe couple of more years now) due to snoring/closing my throat when falling asleep this way.
---[*] Any suggestions regarding snoring would be great as I tried different pillows, towel under my neck, putting head to side, etc. Nothing works.
So I fell asleep in Lions Pose as usual. Which does not help me to astral project as I fall asleep this way due to medication I take. Only way I can not fall asleep quickly (being conscious at those moments) is on my back, which is impossible recent years.[*]--- This was answered in different topic
So anyway I "woke up" a bit during my sleep feeling "hot sphere" in the center of my back (solar plexus area) and a bit in front. I felt, I knew, some master was working on me. But.
Because I was barely conscious at that moment (my body still asleep, and mind was more or less asleep too) I felt like one of my egos of lust approached, tried to say something and that moment Master working on me withdrew.
I understand that performing such tasks (when Masters are performing) is fundamental that no ego intervenes and that when egos do intervene it is better to stop doing "those specific magical tasks" so not to fortify those egos or even worse, like converting one into a vampire or something of the sorts (I know it's not the way you become a vampire etc, I am just using it as a reference). Even tho I understand this I can't help but feel like I screwed up even though I was not trying to.
Would it be ok to continue my rites so to try to get help again, or would it be disrespectful towards Masters after my ego so masterfully screwed everything up?
Thanks!