Dear sir i need your help,
I loved a girl in my office, she liked me too i really cared for her i change myself in so many ways to be with her, even accepted her vices of smoking and started smoking myself, knowing the fact being a in gnosis its against my vows and ethics i lowered myself in value, i dont understand what happened to me when i am around her, sometimes i feel like its an bad recurrence but still i love her alot. Now she is getting married to someone else next week who is more rich this is the only reason because i dont earn huge so she cannot accept me. Everyday i have to see her, she sit next to me and my heart suffer in terrible pain. I dont know how to come out of this feeling, i pray and practice i feel better than again when i am around that pain and hurt is there.
I meditated alot to understand, i feel the pain is because of the attachment and self pity what am i gonno do now, i am left alone after all these years.
Pleas tell me what to do, how to go about and free from this circumstance.
Many thanks for reading this.