What are the chances that all these teachings will serve nothing more than to drive me deeper into the Abyss? It seems as we carry out the work, the great beast within me is just growing and becoming more and more agitated. It is as if I am a very curious explorer who has managed to build myself a vessel capable of exploring the lesser known parts of the Earth. Down in the deep darkness I have discovered a giant monster. In my curiosity, I shine my lights upon the beast to get a better look. As the light hits his eye, he squints in a sinister manner. I can see the potential for this great beast to unleash its fury upon me and yet I continue. Poking and prodding I cause it to become further aggravated day by day. How long before you break your chains that I have fastened around you great beast? At what hour will my tinkering drive you into a fully manifested frenzy. Feeding upon every curiosity that I pursue. The water begins to boil with your rage. I don't know how much longer my vessel can withstand it. Oh Father forgive me, for I have awakened the great beast and I fear in my folly I have unleashed this monster unto humanity. How oh Lord, can I place your yoke upon him?