If a student is totally resistant to conscious astral projection are they doomed according to these teachings?
I think maybe I should just take time away from pursuing gnosis for awhile until the day when I maybe want this experience? I honestly don't think I'm ready for that. And mostly reading all this stuff can be so boring without that internal experience and raising my consciousness sounds great, and I think I have, but when the rubber meets the road of actually awakening and fighting a spiritual battle in internal planes against all my egos and then disposing of all of their bodies, I am frankly not terribly interested? It just sounds too morbid to me.
I can see how I basically have "religious" indoctrination against it, but it's something I don't see myself changing on any time soon, so what do I do?
It isn't all from a religious perspective either. I have an intuition I have much work to do on earth it's hard to imagine myself having time for focusing on all of the internal worlds experiences? So is it fine if a student focuses on the the work in malkuth and so be it if conscious astral travel spontaneously happens, rather than searching for it?
"Once the sin against God was the greatest sin; but God died, and these sinners died with him. To sin against the earth is now the most dreadful thing, and to esteem the entrails of the unknowable higher than the meaning of the earth..."