I am trying to formulate my question for the last couple of days .
In short , what is the safest way to continue meditation and what are the tools to use when during the process of meditation the out of body experience happening which cannot be controlled ?
For example , I am driving the car and suddenly seeing myself sitting on the front top of it . This is dangerous to drive . Or the room walls or furniture is melting . Or extremely vivid lucid dreams .
I had to suppress my mediation many times because of this . I went to multiple places including Buddhist , Zen centers , metaphysical college , churches , Shambala center etc , I have read and reviewed tons of literature and still could not get any help .
My background : I am a professional , highly functional and successful person with 2 college degrees , speaking fluently 4 languages , never used any drugs , no bad habits , currently healthy .
My intuition is telling me what to do and I try to listen to it with the great results for myself , my business and people around me .
Still sometimes I cannot pinpoint the message - for example The message was - danger , smthing would fall on my new born daughter and to validate it I cleaned the whole house , moved the bed and everything around . But it was the DVD player in my SUV which fell in the baby car seat 15 sec after we took the baby out . This made me believe that my daughter had an extremely powerful Guardian Angel and at the same time it showed the limitation of my intuition .
Even if I knew it ahead of time I was hopeless to prevent the damage .
Another example - after I met my ex , I saw many times the image of a gray wall full of spikes when I was looking at him with my intuitive vision and I even told this to him before we got married about it .
8 years after and I still have the same image but at this time it is validated completely and I know exactly the meaning of that message . But at the time I was making decision about marriage I did not listen to my intuition which was basically screaming inside of me since I was thinking that I was strong and could change things .
These are just a couple examples from my life .
As you see , somehow I have a natural capacity to meditate and I am forcefully shutting myself from the world of the thoughts forms and intuition because I have no control over there and do not know how to thread in safely .
In Malkuth I know that if I take the apple it would stay in my hand and I can put it back or eat it . In the world of thoughtforms I am helpless . It can start as an apple and turn and develop into anything known and unknown to me . The same with intuition - the message has to be proper interpreted to be applicable in this reality and I do not have skills . Smtimes I get the msg 100% and smtimes I am spinning for months/years circling around .
Sorry for the long message .
I do not know how to explain it shorter