Greetings to all!
I come today seeking guidance on stabilizing my concerns of experiences in the Astral Plane. In meditation and dreams, I am given experiences (or taken to worlds) that are very different from Earth. I experience them as if I am living there; on several occasions, I was told what to do to gain entry on my own. When I come back to Earth, the experiences are so very real to me that I have developed a phobia (although the experiences are never frightening) and am very hesitant to activate the entry "keys" or "tools" that I have been given. I am very concerned that I may not come back from one of these "worlds" if I enter voluntarily. They are beautiful places: some are communities infused with love; others are places of learning; others are vivid, vibrant places of natural beauty and loving beings.
Earlier this morning in meditation I heard that I should meditate on Lamed (ל) Hey (ה) Heth (ח). I did some research after meditation and saw that it is one of the Kabbalistic 72 Names of God (ל ח ה).
I feel like I am standing on the edge of a ledge; I know that it stretches before me but it is obscured by mist. I am paralyzed by my fear to take a step forward.
Thank you for your help and service!