how do we achieve our first initiation? if a single person cannot achieve it, then what should be his goal? I think that I lack a purpose in my life, knowing that Christ taught the path of initiation through his life,it inspires me to follow him. what should be my goal every time I wake up? some time ago, I decided, that I need to find the knowledge, but that is very general. I know I have to learn meditation, but I neglect it, I do not follow my heart, although I know it is right. How did you overcome the laziness to sit and meditate? maybe I should I should do some japa and pranayama for beginning?