Hello. I am in need a spiritual help. I am 25 atm and heavily schizophrenic both auditory and visual hallucinations. Street lights and lamps sometimes flicker on and off when i walk past them. I have been on medications since i was 19 for this and they do not help one bit. This is my last resort i am trying to find a portal/help i can contact and talk to. I am not sure if this is related but when i was roughly 12, my 2 older friends brought me into his dark lit room and made me recite a dark chant 3 times. At the end they told me i was receiving some sort of strength of the bear power and inside this small stone he gave me he said the power was. He said to always keep it on me but after awhile i discarded the rock and thought nothing of the chant til now. PLZ help me i don't know where to look and i can't sleep. The voices never stop whispering around me and the black/white blobs i see floating around are always there. I dont want to end up dead or living in an asylum for the rest of my life. I have already tried suicide and spent months in wards, thats not me i want to be normal and function again.