Monday, 31 August 2015
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Hello. I am in need a spiritual help. I am 25 atm and heavily schizophrenic both auditory and visual hallucinations. Street lights and lamps sometimes flicker on and off when i walk past them. I have been on medications since i was 19 for this and they do not help one bit. This is my last resort i am trying to find a portal/help i can contact and talk to. I am not sure if this is related but when i was roughly 12, my 2 older friends brought me into his dark lit room and made me recite a dark chant 3 times. At the end they told me i was receiving some sort of strength of the bear power and inside this small stone he gave me he said the power was. He said to always keep it on me but after awhile i discarded the rock and thought nothing of the chant til now. PLZ help me i don't know where to look and i can't sleep. The voices never stop whispering around me and the black/white blobs i see floating around are always there. I dont want to end up dead or living in an asylum for the rest of my life. I have already tried suicide and spent months in wards, thats not me i want to be normal and function again.
6 years ago
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#10339
Accepted Answer
Dreams are of the mind. Visions from divinity are another thing.

Dreams are from the abyss, from suffering, from hallucinations and illusion. Visions exist when the mind is not obscuring the light of divinity, when there is not filter in one's perception.

Schizophrenia is marked by strong auditory and visual hallucinations, finding meaning in places where there exists no meaning, as you know.

In these studies, we know that much of our perception is conditioned, especially within individuals with schizophrenia (who are hyper-psychic by nature; the only problem is that this clairvoyance is subjective and negative, an expression of conditioning or the ego).

There is nothing to be ashamed of in this respect; such a condition and such mental states can be remedied when applying effective spiritual methods and remaining on medication to treat physical-chemical imbalances in the brain.

Meditation treats the mind. Medication treats the brain. The mind is the subtle manipulator of the physical brain, since the brain is the machine the mind uses in this physical world.

If you want healing, treat both your mind and brain through meditation and medication.

I would highly question your experiences in light of meditation, after doing a lot of transmutation exercises to heal your mind, as mentioned.

In the silence and peace of the tranquil heart, when the mind is at rest, the force of divinity awakens within us to lead us on the path of health, sanity, comprehension, and strength.

For thirty years I sought God. But when I looked carefully I found that in reality God was the seeker and I the sought. -Bayazid al-Bastami

6 years ago
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#10298
Mental illness is a serious disease, but curable.

The mantras S M HON are effective when pronounced an hour a day for the healing of the mental body. When the mental body gets sick, the physical brain becomes ill, and thus psychotic symptoms emerge.

Creative and positive activities like painting, art, sculpting, composing, playing music, walking in nature, hiking, kayaking, playing a game of chess, writing poetry, are all wonderful treatments for developing the heart and balancing the mind.

In conjunction with medication, the best medicine is meditation and prayer.

Divinity does not abandon us, nor those who are afflicted and in suffering. The greater strength you provide your soul through mantra recitation, pranayama, transmutation, runes, sacred rites of rejuvenation, and meditation, the greater harmony you will develop in yourself in order to overcome auditory and visual hallucinations.

If you fornicate, meaning: masturbate or ejaculate your semen through any act of fornication, you will deepen your suffering and exacerbate your symptoms. Fornication causes mental illness, from this or previous lives, despite what medical experts say in the literature.

Drugs like marijuana, L.S.D., and other psychotics will also destroy the mental body and produce insanity.

Avoid alcohol as well, since this is destructive for the mind.

The more you develop your soul through scientific chastity and spiritual practice, the more force you will have to heal your mind and produce tranquility and peace.

Also be mindful to stay on your medications once on them, because "going cold turkey" or trying to get off anti-psychotics will produce withdrawal and psychotic symptoms.

I know a missionary of the Gnostic Church who has schizophrenia, but by remaining compliant with medication in conjunction with his spiritual practice, has effectively healed himself of symptoms and is working to help others.

Therefore, there is hope. Do not lose faith in your inner divinity!

For thirty years I sought God. But when I looked carefully I found that in reality God was the seeker and I the sought. -Bayazid al-Bastami

6 years ago
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#10328
Ty for finally responding i understand things take time. I have read your post and I do plan on making some changes in my life.

But I am also very scared due to something that happened between the first post I made and reading your response. I entrust you won't judge me or call me a liar because I am serious in what I the experience I am about to share with you.


It was in the middle of the night about 1 week ago. I was in my bed reading some news on my phone around 5ish AM before I was ready to go to sleep. (I dont go to sleep until the sun comes up for obvious reasons with my mental state). All of a sudden I heard a LOUD crash/slam. I looked around put my glasses on and got up to investiagte where the sound came from, either my room or somewhere else in the house. (both of my parents were still sleeping at the time and did not hear this). I instantly saw a Laminated Card of Saint Michael I was wedged into my dresser mirror was no longer there. I was face up and pointing in my direction. I put 2 and 2 together and knew instantly this was what made the sound. There is NO WAY my ceiling fan made a win current strong enough to move this item and SLAM it down with the force it did on my dresser, to still be face up towards me. NOW this is where it starts to scare me and I am sure you have heard things like this before but it really upsets and angers me.

That night when i finally went to sleep I had a Vivid dream/foresight. The dream was about a free frog that kept coming back. I first found the frog in a cheezit box I got and started eating. I took the frog and threw it into the trash can. He came back and somehow wound up back in the cheezit box the next time I went to eat more that same day. After the 2nd time of him showing himself i put him back into the trashcan and sealed the plastic bag to he could not escape. (he was very large and a very strong light green color). Next in the dream I remember talking to a woman who i couldn't recognize as someone i knew but somehow i had trust in them. I told them about the frog and she did not believe me. I told her ok let me show you I am not crazy, I took the trash bag out of the trash can and the frog was still in it croaking and moving around. She gave me a weird face of being stumped... . Now on to the next part of the dream. Next i was near the trash can and there was a yellow lab dog there that was panting and couldn't move. Its eyes would roll around but no sounds or movement almost in a state of being paralyzed. I stroked and tried to comfort the dog but could tell he was suffering. I than noticed that it had 2 fang marks in its leg/thigh area. Than I woke up.

That day when i woke up I went to have my coffee at the local park and spoke to a women friend of mine about the dream I had and what the fang marks could have ment. She said it could be a sing of interference from a 3rd party.

After a few days passed. It was early in the morning around 630AM. I was still up and my dad was just getting up and moving around. I went to throw away some trash from the night and I opened the trash can to finder a large spider staring directly at me in the trash can on top of the trash. When i say it stared me down i was one of those encounters where nothing else matters but staying focused on what u see. I told him about the spider and closed the trash can. He can to kill it cause I always stay the fuck away from spiders I know there are very toxic kinds where i live. He opened it and i watched the spider go under trash and hide and try to come back out and it almost bit him on his hand. We sealed it up and took the trash outside. This same day I went to the park later than usual for my coffee and I saw the women i was talking to about my dream was distrought and by herself. I asked her what was wrong and her son just got out of jail for a minor charge I know him, and that day before i got there he passed out from dehydration or something medical related and had to be taken in an ambulance away.

Now when i went home i took a long hot shower to wakeup and thats WHEN 2+2 kicked in. The frog story is a whole lot similiar to the spider showing up in our trash can. I tried t piece together what the symbolism in the frog/dog/spider could be but I am not educated enough in the mater to come up with an asnwer. I told my parents that day when i got out of the shower about the dream and how it related to the spider that morning. Their faces were something i would not forget. They had no answers or even words to explain it.

So this has been my life since I last posted asking for help. PLZ i need some more guidance on what route/steps i should start taking or IF this dream/occurance is related in anyway to me or my symptons.

Lastly my sister has a pit/lab mix she brings over on the holidays and I always get along well with animals. They always come up to me whether its a dog/squirrel/cat/birds/racoons. During xmas break Sophie (her dog) was with me in the middle of the night hanging out when she started growling and barking at the wall behind me. I watched her eye movements and body language to figure it out. (i was taught that in the USMC). She was following something in the wall behind me and i couldn't see any blobs like usual. It started messing with her and she would move around and cry and hide under my desk. During the day everyone would be in the living room sitting and watching TV. She would be in the corner behind the sofa against the wall behind everyone else starting behind us watching something we couldnt see. I watched her do it multiple times.

That is it for tonight I need to get sleep. TY again for responding and I will start on some changes. I look forward to hearing from someone again plz....!
6 years ago
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#10339
Accepted Answer
Dreams are of the mind. Visions from divinity are another thing.

Dreams are from the abyss, from suffering, from hallucinations and illusion. Visions exist when the mind is not obscuring the light of divinity, when there is not filter in one's perception.

Schizophrenia is marked by strong auditory and visual hallucinations, finding meaning in places where there exists no meaning, as you know.

In these studies, we know that much of our perception is conditioned, especially within individuals with schizophrenia (who are hyper-psychic by nature; the only problem is that this clairvoyance is subjective and negative, an expression of conditioning or the ego).

There is nothing to be ashamed of in this respect; such a condition and such mental states can be remedied when applying effective spiritual methods and remaining on medication to treat physical-chemical imbalances in the brain.

Meditation treats the mind. Medication treats the brain. The mind is the subtle manipulator of the physical brain, since the brain is the machine the mind uses in this physical world.

If you want healing, treat both your mind and brain through meditation and medication.

I would highly question your experiences in light of meditation, after doing a lot of transmutation exercises to heal your mind, as mentioned.

In the silence and peace of the tranquil heart, when the mind is at rest, the force of divinity awakens within us to lead us on the path of health, sanity, comprehension, and strength.

For thirty years I sought God. But when I looked carefully I found that in reality God was the seeker and I the sought. -Bayazid al-Bastami

6 years ago
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#10340
Thank you Almustafa,

I will work more on the life changes you have suggested and meditation. I really have no where else to turn to. Society is soo judging and skeptical until it happens to them. Stay safe and enjoy life Almustafa!
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