Hello,

First I would like to thank you for all your lectures on this website

It has been a while since I started reading about Gnosis but it is only recently that I have tried practicing it. I have been struggling with maintaining conscious awareness moment to moment. My attempts at meditation are mostly filled with my thoughts, fantasies and memories, although for a moment I may become aware that I'm just following my thoughts those moments when I am aware of my thoughts are few and far between. I try to remember my inner Being but I only manage to do so a few instances in an entire day. I have also tried the key of S.O.L, which helps but I'm still not constantly aware.

I have tried prayer (Lord's prayer, Jesus prayer) and it seems to help me remember God more often. I want to ask if constant (conscious) prayer is sufficient for self-remembering especially considering I have to also watch my three brains and how I use them as well as working on my psychological defects.

I understand that all of my struggles are due to my weak will and my egos but I would truly appreciate advice in this regard

Thank you so much for all your time and effort.