Thank you. I will continue to study and practice what's taught.
My intent is to better understand my dream state. From a mere child I would remember my dreams each night; as I grew into my teens they revealed messages for me or others. In my 20s and 30s they waned. For the past 10-15 years (now in my 50s) my dreams are quite direct with messages, and now I am aware that I am dreaming and my waking and dream states are mingling. For example, in dreams I would say "I don't like this dream" or "this dream doesn't make sense" and wake up. I am also dreaming of people I know and they have long conversations with me, but when I awake I remember everything but the conversations. In three dreams over the past few months, I wake up saying "I don't want this kind of responsibility". I am concerned about that as I remember that I am being given something for someone in the dream (and they are people I know). In one dream in particular, I was in a forest with two other persons instructing me on which plants to pick, for what purpose and for whom; when I awoke I did not remember the instructions. I later learned that the person is not well. I feel very badly about the subconscious reason that's causing my apprehension in dreams.
Perhaps you can help shed some light? Thank you for your assistance. I am very grateful for your service.