is it because we cultivated bodhichitta in previous lives while re-getting born, it comes out of us spontaneously, naturally? So is the meaning of life to cultivate as much more bodhichitta possible and work on our self, getting ready so that to achieve someday the enlightenment for the benefit of all beings?
If I knew, that bodhichitta is the sexual liquid, , I would never have watched any undressed girls ,now I end up crying for what I have done, for betraying Christ, my only friend when no one else were there for me, my Divine Mother, who was the only one able to make me laugh, when no one else could, everyone that loves me, for making my physical mother sad, what were my intentions? how did they help? they didn't! I don't want to influence the other students negatively, you can edit my post.
thank you! now I feel good again, I feel the sun inside me rising
If I knew, that bodhichitta is the sexual liquid, , I would never have watched any undressed girls ,now I end up crying for what I have done, for betraying Christ, my only friend when no one else were there for me, my Divine Mother, who was the only one able to make me laugh, when no one else could, everyone that loves me, for making my physical mother sad, what were my intentions? how did they help? they didn't! I don't want to influence the other students negatively, you can edit my post.
thank you! now I feel good again, I feel the sun inside me rising