Do you recommend any book of Saint Germain ,Swami Sivanada, Samael Aun Weor or anyone else or courses from gnosticteaching.org that helped you the first years on the path to God? I have in mind the Bhagavad Gita, Dhamapada, but the far most helpful book for me was the revolutionary psychology, which for some reason I do not study as much as I should. If I were to live my house now, take one single thing and never come back, it would be this book together with the revolutionary psychology in one volume (a german edition), however I rarely study it, as if a magical power prohibits me from reading it. So even if a get the book that you will recommend me, I am not sure that I will read it to the end. I have many bad habits and I do not observe my self as I should, as a result, my willpower to do what I want is very weak and I dislike it. This summer I took the decision, that if there were one thing that I would like to have before dying, that would be chastity, but since then, I do everything opposite, as it were the only thing, that I wouldn't want to have, I started even the next day watching pornographic images, what I didn't do before, having wet dreams, stronger bad will/laziness, getting late to sleep etc. all that almost never happened to me before, I betrayed my own self. But now this must end, that is why I came here for a book recommendation and some advice...I will start seeing some operas(Fidelio for start), some nice pieces of art, walking in the forest, watching the beautiful sky, doing pranayama, styding the revolutionary psychology and praying