I have this problem of being disconnected from material things and ruining my financial situation while walking on this path.
While I have been walking this path, having a strong connection with my inner Being couple of years ago, I have ruined my physical life to the point I got broke financially. Years have passed and I got very discouraged because of my physical situation have become, lost connection to this sacred path and terribly failed.
At the moment, this is a second day I feel a great urge to walk this path once again (I meditate time to time on the ego and other matters and do pranayama daily which helps me not forget this path completely), but I got a problem when I walk this path I forget all material things. Money start to be of no importance to me. All physical things start to be unimportant.
I have started my own family (I will have a child with my wife), but I have a concern that I will fail even more financially and material things will not matter to me again, endangering my family well being (even further more, as we are kind of poor people, not truly poor, but financially weak).
In this world we need money to live, we need material things (like clothes) to not look like a complete beggars and to be an example to other people that you can walk this path and be successful on it.
How can I balance material things with spirituality? How can I walk this path without being poor? It is a very difficult thing to me. I have asked this questions my inner Being during countless meditations and got no answer and no solution at all.
How can I fix myself? What should I do? I really know that if I start to follow this path again I will achieve a spiritual success again, but I am worried that I will destroy my life completely... This is my main problem in this life and I do not know how to make a bond between material and spiritual life.
Any advice would be of great help.