My question is at the bottom if you'd like to skip this. I am 21 (Male) 22 in the spring. Around the age of 11 or so I discovered masturbation. Have been doing it once or twice on about a daily basis since then including pornography. At the age of 17 I realized the damaging effects through research & my own experience because I have also since about 11 suffered from manic depression, a panic disorder and agoraphobia. Using the masturbation as my only form of "release", it's wonderful how the two and two work together....Due to my limited knowledge and nobody in my life with the slightest intelligence I continued to fall into pieces over the years trying to figure this out. You can imagine the world of other problems this has caused. Anyway I have been struggling to defeat this for years. As much as I now work on awareness/mindfulness, meditation and other areas of my life this is still a struggle. Balancing my sexual energy is the only big obstacle in my way as of right now at least that's how it seems. I get pretty down because every relapse is a huge set back and need this to get through my panic disorder. I've gotten rid of porn long ago since I never really had an addiction to that but general masturbation is still an issue. I would try self karezza methods and meditation but would eventually fall. I went a month without masturbation and in that month I made more progress with my life then I have in over four years. I did this another time very long ago too and had the same result. Then I tried balancing it once a week, trying new methods and well my progress with depression and anxiety slowly began to slip over the next three months. When I used to have a sexual partner these problems were still the same even without masturbation. My current goal is to make it three months without but am having a tough time. (Being stuck in your room for years at a time makes this extra difficult)
My real question here is because of starting regular masturbation at the age of 11-22 do any of you know of possible permanent damage it's caused from a biological standpoint? Did I stunt my growth? (I used to be almost 6 feet tall now I'm 5'10 although other factors can play their part) Are there areas of my brain that I have damaged to the point of no return? Or any other irreversible things that have gone on as of result?
My real question here is because of starting regular masturbation at the age of 11-22 do any of you know of possible permanent damage it's caused from a biological standpoint? Did I stunt my growth? (I used to be almost 6 feet tall now I'm 5'10 although other factors can play their part) Are there areas of my brain that I have damaged to the point of no return? Or any other irreversible things that have gone on as of result?