Hello, brothers.
What troubles me is that the Master emphasizes that one must feel remorse, beg, and even cry for forgiveness. Very few are the times when I've felt the need to cry from remorse of a mistake, yet the Master said that one needs to suffer and cry for each defect we want eliminated.
I think I've comprehended some defects, where they come from, what feeds them, etc., and I understand why its desire is wrong, but I often find myself unable to feel remorse, at least to the degree that Master Samael speaks about. If I can't repent, fall on my knees and cry, does it mean that I do not repent enough, I do not feel enough remorse to annihilate such defect?