Thursday, 24 July 2014
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Hi everyone,

I have read a few posts so far on here by young guys who have met a female with whom they felt a particular affinity, and I find this very touching because I am in a similar situation.

I started following Swami Sivananda's instructions in Practice of Brahmacharya in 2009 and I discovered The Perfect Matrimony by Samael Aun Weor in mid-2011. Back then I had met one girl whom I thought was the right one, but things did not work out between us and so I have had to move on. About a year after that, I met an attractive person at work. We liked each other a lot, but at that stage she was too young for dating. So I left town and travelled around for a while, and after two years I have come back to live in this town where we met two years ago.

That her and I could not be together straight away was probably for the best, as it gives me the opportunity to return to my Gnostic studies and spiritual program and to get established in employment and household life.

The relationship between myself and my friend has all the potential to turn into a happy marriage. Right now, however, things are quite dismal. I want to clear my name of various sins I have acquired over the years and I have managed to narrow down the list to several ugly habits that have plagued me for a long time. Out of all these the one I am most scandalised by is pornography addiction. I get the sense that in order to lay the foundation for a happy Gnostic marriage, I must become well-established in chastity. I would also like to become well-prepared to educate my future wife and the public on the same topic.

As pornography is a big problem, and sexual fantasy is also a big problem, I don't know whether it is better to discontinue thinking of her altogether or to try replacing impure thoughts of her with pure thoughts of her. Some pornography producers deceitfully market their product as very artistic and refined, but in Christian parlance, pornography abuse is adultery and fornication, correct? I have seen relationships destroyed by it before and would like to avoid this happening to me or anyone else. Sexual aberrations have also given me a really bad temper and this is something I need to overcome as well.

I'd just like some more information on the virtue of fidelity and how it applies to chastity, and whether there are some Bible verses or chapters anyone can recommend. I was also wondering about the names Lilith and Nahemah and whether I need to know more about these (deities? demons?) to overcome my undesirable habits.

Finally, as well as getting re-established in Brahmacharya, I would find it helpful to have access to the resources necessary for me to communicate Gnostic philosophy to a female friend who is intelligent and fairly open-minded about spiritual topics, but who has not read The Perfect Matrimony or anything about Brahmacharya.

Any suggestions would be appreciated - thanks for reading.
9 years ago
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#7280
I suggest you reflect on the post by Benedictus referenced below on the topic of masturbation and pornography.

Fornication occurs whenever we identify with and indulge in a lustful thought, feeling, or physical habit. As Jesus (upon him be peace) stated in the Gospels:
Ye have heard that it was said by them of old time, Thou shalt not commit adultery:

But I say unto you, That whosoever looketh on a woman to lust after her hath committed adultery with her already in his heart. -Matthew 5:27-28
To be faithful to one's partner, one must be faithful to one's Divine Mother, Layla, for whom the Sufi Majnun was driven to madness.

We must be mad over our Divine Mother, Layla, if we seek to love any physical woman in this path.

The negative polarization of the Divine Mother Kundalini is known as Lilith and Nahemah. Lilith, the shadow of Layla (since both words mean "night") is the mother of incest, masturbation, homosexuality, lesbianism, and other crimes against humanity.

Nahemah is the polarization of fatality, infernal beauty: fornication and adultery.

For more knowledge on this topic, study The Perfect Matrimony by Samael Aun Weor!

To communicate this knowledge effectively, you must be in communication with your Inner God, Allah (may He be exalted) and to follow his words and wisdom within your soul.

If you have no light, you cannot show it to others.

For thirty years I sought God. But when I looked carefully I found that in reality God was the seeker and I the sought. -Bayazid al-Bastami

9 years ago
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#7287
Thankyou for your detailed and thoughtful response.

I read the story of Majnun and I recommend it to others who are following this path but happen to be separated or "quarantined" from the person with whom they wish to pursue a relationship. In my case it is not just bad luck and a reputation for thinking different that has alienated me, it's the bad habits I haven't overcome.

Benedictus, in his response to Crystal Collector, advised him to work with the Rune Dorn every day and practice the exercise whenever lust attacked. I also gathered from reading this discussion that we students should think over what it is we truly want from Gnosis.

It would be sad to think that all I want in my present debased state is a woman (or more than one) with whom to fornicate, but I would prefer to confront the reality of the situation than be deceived any longer. I guess my current excuse has been, "enjoy now, suffer later." I can feel the constant, nagging pull of porn addiction now that I have gratified it once again. One forgets what it's like to enjoy life in chastity and how to nurture love for a Higher Power. There are also many bad influences around that have caused me to slip:

"[T]he so-called brothers of different organisations frighten the student. The magicians of darkness, disguised as saints advise the devotee to spill the semen in a saintly manner." (From Samael Aun Weor's Perfect Matrimony)

I want to do away with the idea that it's normal or socially acceptable, hence my post and request for help with this. Thanks!
9 years ago
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#7288
Cleopatra. If it be love indeed, tell me how much.
Antony. There's beggary in the love that can be reckon'd.
Cleopatra. I'll set a bourn how far to be beloved.
Antony. Then must thou needs find out new heaven, new earth.

(Shakespeare, Antony and Cleopatra)
9 years ago
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#7290
:)

For thirty years I sought God. But when I looked carefully I found that in reality God was the seeker and I the sought. -Bayazid al-Bastami

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