Monday, 14 July 2014
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I have been wandering confused all my life hence the screen name. I stumbled across this site by pure coincidence even though I don't believe in them. I chose the title I did because I am so depressed and have been contemplating suicide to stop the pain. There is much pain for a plethora of reasons. Some self inflicted and some inflicted up on me. I am starting to tear up as I write this because everything is bubbling just below the surface. I don't really even know where to start! The link that brought me here was to the perfect matrimony. I began reading it and became even more hopeless.
I am 46, divorced, have a various range of mental issues (or so I have been diagnosed), take all kinds of meds (prescribed of course), have several physical ailments, having surgery the 18th - and scared I might not make it, am almost a recluse because I can no longer tolerate people, bitter over the hand that life has dealt me, have trouble sleeping, lost custody of my child (past tense - she is now 26 and we have a horrible relationship), have defiled my body in more ways than I care to count, I have anger that seethes out of every cell in my body and the list goes on. The bottom is falling out from under me!
What is a good place to start here so that I can begin the healing process? Are there people with whom you can talk to here?
PLEASE HELP
I am 46, divorced, have a various range of mental issues (or so I have been diagnosed), take all kinds of meds (prescribed of course), have several physical ailments, having surgery the 18th - and scared I might not make it, am almost a recluse because I can no longer tolerate people, bitter over the hand that life has dealt me, have trouble sleeping, lost custody of my child (past tense - she is now 26 and we have a horrible relationship), have defiled my body in more ways than I care to count, I have anger that seethes out of every cell in my body and the list goes on. The bottom is falling out from under me!
What is a good place to start here so that I can begin the healing process? Are there people with whom you can talk to here?
PLEASE HELP
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Thank you so much Instructor KH! I will start where you suggested. I am adamant about this journey! I need to work on the patience but I feel that the yearning for healing will outweigh the lack of patience.
You are a life saver! Blessings to you my kind friend.
You are a life saver! Blessings to you my kind friend.
The doctrine is vast and everyone starts with different motivations, with different states of mind, different karma. You can start with whatever topic interests you. A list of introductory articles is here: http://gnosticteachings.org/the-teachings-of-gnosis/introductory-information.html.
Below are two links to inspirational passages from the books of Samael Aun Weor.
Your pain is psychologically created and can be psychologically removed. That psychological work is outlined in The Great Rebellion, Treatise of Revolutionary Psychology, and other books.
You can listen to the many introductory lectures here: Beginning Here and Now.
You must be diligent and patient. Nothing changes overnight or automatically. A great tree takes much work to grow.
Below are two links to inspirational passages from the books of Samael Aun Weor.
Your pain is psychologically created and can be psychologically removed. That psychological work is outlined in The Great Rebellion, Treatise of Revolutionary Psychology, and other books.
You can listen to the many introductory lectures here: Beginning Here and Now.
You must be diligent and patient. Nothing changes overnight or automatically. A great tree takes much work to grow.
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Thank you so much Instructor KH! I will start where you suggested. I am adamant about this journey! I need to work on the patience but I feel that the yearning for healing will outweigh the lack of patience.
You are a life saver! Blessings to you my kind friend.
You are a life saver! Blessings to you my kind friend.
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