Thanks, dear Nicodemus.
I'm all excited now and packed up for a retreat! I can hardly wait to have the petals of my heart chacra intertwine with the open chacras of my wonderful beautiful Gnostic brothers and sisters in a hug of universal love! I want that so much, I can almost taste it! Let no one call me an ingrate, because I am always thankful, and let no one call me disrespectful because I am always respectful and polite. Thus, regarding your ricommending that I attend a retreat, have management contact me when you are ready to send me the $250, the money I will need to pay for a retreat, and five times that amount additional for my two-way plane ticket and meals. Don't ask for an itemized advance estimate, I am counting on 1)everyone knowing what mere existence, and on top of it, travel, costs in this world, and 2)a reasonable monetary safety buffer because unexpected risks and extra expenses increase proportional to the distance traveled from one's home neighborhood. Since national parks are favored for retreats, I am not counting lodging expenses, thus I am frugal with other people's money. I am sorry that I will need to actually pay for my transportation, I can't do it by hitch-hiking, because I am a man, not a beautiful woman, thus no male drivers would pick me up due to lack of the Luciferian type of lustful sexual attraction which motivates people in this world. Nor would any woman drivers pick me up, lust or no lust, because they see an unknown man as a potential threat to their safety... and unfortunately, I am tall, with a face and haircut like Arnold Schwartzenegger's, and so I look like I could do some damage, as the expression goes, from the point of view of the average fright-based individual, which is all unfortunate, but what can we do, it's all an unfortunate effect of the type of world we live in.
I know you haven't offered to pay my way. Just letting you know how much it costs, this wonderful recommendation that you made. And as you know, from my previous recent inquiry on this board for making money appear, none has appeared as of yet. Thus if you want to make some appear for me, I will be thankful once more yet. Perhaps the combined prayers of all the Gnostic teachers-volunteers here would have a far faster money-appearing effect for me than mere little ol' me, the worm that I am, as a mere question-asker on this board.
Have a meeting with management and I suggest a "retreat scholarship" be established, with myself as the first recipient. Chip money off of the usual charitable contributions which this organization receives and allot from that for this.
I am trying to be creatively helpful so that positive things can happen here.
Establish a kitty, with a bulb thermometer illustration by it, whereby at the rate of $10 minimum acceptable contribution per person, the needed amount will build up in no time to send one poor Gnostic devotee to a retreat. Give it extra encouragement by suggesting to persons that they give up a $10 lunch and turn it into a spiritual fast. I would save that way too, but I am already eating only one meal per day and already frequently forgo that in order to save for some necessities other than food. I nominate myself for the first recipient, since I incepted this idea. Don't forget to put a tab on the main page for this as a distinctly identified gifting option, perhaps with the red color in the thermometer rising as it gathers more. I am sure that the personal starting seed contributions of management and the Gnostic teachers, all giving as private individuals, out of pocket, will give good vibes to this noble endeavor, attracting more good money to the initial blessed money.
I wake up every morning with a feeling of positive expectation, not to mention with the Morning Prayer. When I need, I request. When I want to know, I ask. When something wonderful is suggested to me as a solution to my question, but for which I don't have the money, I rack my brain to do the best I can.
If you suggest a job, I am ready to accept one, the one that you would offer me, whereby the only jobs that are real are the ones that are actually offered to me, and I don't know what happens to the rest that one hears of, none of them are mine, so none of them pay a salary to me. One never knows, so I remain open. And I ask My Father who art in Secret to coordinate and consecutively line up for me all the wonderful things that are headed down the pike for me, with my secretly wishing for that suggested Gnostic retreat to be amongst the first of the good things to come.
Thank you for recommending. Thank you for reading. I will mark this matter as resolved when your recommendation to me manifests.