Hi,
I've been struggling with certain egos for a while now. And I am also having difficulty with overcoming lust.
I am single. I make very good progress up to a point. But it seems the sexual energy increases intensely, and together with it the temptations. And I later suffer from nocturnal emissions.
The strange thing is, it was not this difficult before. I almost feel cursed. Perhaps there is an succubus attached to me.
All I know is I get very very depressed after a fall. And I have made the bad habit of counting the weeks since a fall happened which would make me even more depressed when I come back to zero. This cycle is going on for such a long time, I feel so low and feel like going crazy when I lose so much effort and so much time.
I've used the incenses in the past to help me with the spiritual work. But I feel I need something stronger such as the application of sulphur in the shoes, but I can't get hold of such substance and use it in a safe manner. Is there anywhere I can buy this?
I feel like I make ten steps forward and ten steps back in a vicious circle that never ends. And the years pass and I am still at the same point. I am never going to make it.
Peace,
SeekerofLight
I've been struggling with certain egos for a while now. And I am also having difficulty with overcoming lust.
I am single. I make very good progress up to a point. But it seems the sexual energy increases intensely, and together with it the temptations. And I later suffer from nocturnal emissions.
The strange thing is, it was not this difficult before. I almost feel cursed. Perhaps there is an succubus attached to me.
All I know is I get very very depressed after a fall. And I have made the bad habit of counting the weeks since a fall happened which would make me even more depressed when I come back to zero. This cycle is going on for such a long time, I feel so low and feel like going crazy when I lose so much effort and so much time.
I've used the incenses in the past to help me with the spiritual work. But I feel I need something stronger such as the application of sulphur in the shoes, but I can't get hold of such substance and use it in a safe manner. Is there anywhere I can buy this?
I feel like I make ten steps forward and ten steps back in a vicious circle that never ends. And the years pass and I am still at the same point. I am never going to make it.
Peace,
SeekerofLight