Thanks in advance and forgive my limited vocabulary, I don't mean to be vulgar. Since an early age I've dwelled in metaphysics where I learned to hold my sperm mechanically by applying pressure with my hand during orgasm. Recently I've embarked on a higher quest of surrendering desire and I ran into this website and white tantra, it made perfect sense to me. I've been abstaining from orgasm and ejaculation through breathing and concentration and have been able to raise more energy to higher spheres than with the previous method. The problem im having is that by avoiding the orgasm I remain throughout the day with very high tension in my groins and going to the toilet any minor strain causes release of sperm drops. Just a few drops released is enough to make the furnace collapse, as if I had not had slept for days and end up crashing for up to 6 hrs in bed. My intuition tells me I should stay on this path but continue to purify my bodies through exercise and meditation until greater control can be achieved. However this has been defeating my struggle and any advice, insight or input will be highly appreciated. Thanks again, Jon.