Hello and thank you for looking at my questions.
If someone discovers gnosis, and begins to dabble into mindfulness and meditation, but does not follow ethics (abstaining from fornication, drugs, etc..), will they inevitably begin to strengthen their kundabuffer (develop negatively)?
Also, how does one combat great identification? Such as anxiety? Personally I never had strong anxiety before gnosis, but when I began to dabble into mindfulness (which also brought peaceful experiences) I began to have strong fears. I do not associate this with gnosis being bad, but perhaps it has dug up something deep inside. I have a feeling I began to develop an ego of fear and I began to be mindful with it. So when I attempt to become mindful, most of the time I will become identified with an awareness rooted in fear, and when it starts it can last for hours. Sometimes I will attain a strong mindfulness and when the fear comes I will recognize it and not become identified. But if I slip once and am not prepared for the "onslaught" it will usually cripple me for a while. Usually when it begins it is very difficult to go back to not identifying with it. I admit to incessantly self fornicated for nearly a decade.
I have read that a very powerful tool against fear is remembering your innermost.
If someone discovers gnosis, and begins to dabble into mindfulness and meditation, but does not follow ethics (abstaining from fornication, drugs, etc..), will they inevitably begin to strengthen their kundabuffer (develop negatively)?
Also, how does one combat great identification? Such as anxiety? Personally I never had strong anxiety before gnosis, but when I began to dabble into mindfulness (which also brought peaceful experiences) I began to have strong fears. I do not associate this with gnosis being bad, but perhaps it has dug up something deep inside. I have a feeling I began to develop an ego of fear and I began to be mindful with it. So when I attempt to become mindful, most of the time I will become identified with an awareness rooted in fear, and when it starts it can last for hours. Sometimes I will attain a strong mindfulness and when the fear comes I will recognize it and not become identified. But if I slip once and am not prepared for the "onslaught" it will usually cripple me for a while. Usually when it begins it is very difficult to go back to not identifying with it. I admit to incessantly self fornicated for nearly a decade.
I have read that a very powerful tool against fear is remembering your innermost.