<p>I'm shocked. I thought I was a human being, and now I'm beginning to realize that I lack the characteristics of a human being. I appear to be a smart good man, but the truth is, my actions reflect my hatred of wisdom. This is very humbling. I feel naked, there's no place to hide. My lack of humanity is VERY obvious in the presence of those who are more spiritually advanced. I ask God to forgive me. I need to learn how to love wisdom.</p>