Lately, I have been going through a number of ordeals in my life, and it has been difficult. Sometimes we fell the need to talk things over with someone, just to unload and get some advice. There are other times, when you do this and your realize the conversation turns into gossip. Sometimes gossip tends to be a bit juicy, interesting, and even funny...but it's not a good virtue to behold.
When I perform retro-spective exercise at night, or just a short reflection throughout my day, I think to myself (catch) myself after the fact, and I say to myself" You shouldn't have said such-and-such.... but I get so caught up in the moment, that I don't realize what I'm saying and what the consequences might be later on. Sometimes I don't even consider the consequences/impact because most of the time when there's gossip, the subject matter is not present. (Guilty as charged)!
Sometimes I feel bad about things that I have said about an individual, but othertimes I don't because I feel them to be true.
This also brings to mind about how I should be more concious of transforming impressions, but I can't seem to get ahead of the ball on that.
Can you offer any advice on how to put a lock on my tongue, and remember my being? I really want to change this quality in myself because there are times when i don't like it. I am aware of it. Sometimes at social events hosted by the company I work with/private or public.. i don't like going, because people stand around drinking, sometimes smoking, and talking about senseless chatter....... just downright nonsence......
So, when i choose not to go, people think I am being unsociable..... sometimes I don't care, but there are times when I feel alone or ostrasized. I am aminority in my work place, so I know that I have some deep feelings about that as well.
I am trying to keep it all together... and balance my life... it's not easy. Thank you so much for listening and giving us access to this wealth of knowledge. We are eternally grateful.