This is the path of suffering on behalf of humanity and the smaller brothers (or in other words animals), and I am talking about killing insects.
I have asked a question like this before here, or it could have been the old forums, I have trouble recalling the visual memory. In any case, the exchange went something like this: if you have insects in your home, it is usually the result of a filthy environment.
Which simply is not true in many cases, or is beyond my spectrum of control in any case, as I do live with filthy people who insist on keeping very messy rooms, and in a forest environment. But as it is, the house is undergoing renovations and still has imperfect doors and windows, allowing the insects to enter upon chemically sensing heat and food, in what is becoming a colder and eventually freezing environment.
I am quite set on purchasing some diatomaceous earth and spreading it about to deal with this situation. This broadens the extent in which I'll be killing them.
So that is my concern. Really at this point I'm just trying to get an idea of how to weigh this. This [insects crawling and attempting to penetrate my living conditions] can upset my meditations, this can make me not want to do Viparita Karani Mudra on the floor, or all of the other practices that involve laying on a mat or what have you.
The problem persists for almost half the year and has very bad psychological effects on me.
Really when it comes down to it, attempting to deal with this problem in this way is an attempt to deal with my own psyche. In many areas of my life I have been changing who I am friends with, changing my habits, and so forth, in order to increase the grade of quality of my energies and attain stabilization of my mind stream. These little buggers will interfere greatly with my very weak and non ascetic mind. I am the type of person who is very bothered by these types of things.
To be clear I'm quite set on this, my intuition is guiding me to stabilize and to dominate my internal and external conditions. But when I hear about things like the Dali Lama not wanting to even kill mosquitoes, then it kind of makes you wonder why, when you're about to do whatever is necessary to keep your living conditions proper.