In my being, I feel I have endured a period of putrefaction in the past months of my life. Reflecting now, at first it was darkness and pain I didn't understand. Now, I can feel new winds drawing me out, and I feel inspiration for the first time in long, dark months. I'm coming to see it like the Alchemists did, cycles of putrefaction and edification, over and over again, and reaching finer points of understanding about problems that I'm beginning to see are rooted years back in my life. I have hope and new insight helping me forward into a new understanding of my self, but the wounds of fear and shame of weakness are still there for me. Please forgive me if I am including to much of my personal self in this question, but I feel unsteady and need help in order to see my fear of myself for what it is. How can I understand fear of my self? How can I understand shame? How can I remain open, and have love flow through myself and to those people I love? Thank you.