Saturday, 22 June 2013
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Alexander, thank you for your post. You have inspired me to give my long overdue testimony and gratitude to everyone here.

I have been touched by this work in such a tremendous way that it cannot be expressed with words. I am always reminded how lucky I am to have discovered Gnosis. In my early teens, I was so fortunate to have stumbled upon these teachings and I did not even realize at the time the significance of what I found. Thus, like a very ignorant and naive child, I abandoned everything I had learned and became absorbed in this world.

The path I went down was very dark and confusing. It is the most painful thing to suffer and not even know it, to not see the perpetual cycle of cause and effect, pleasure and pain, of the gradual but most evident degeneration--the degeneration of ethics and virtues, the degeneration of the heart! To not even feel genuine compassion, love, and happiness, because the capacity to feel them had been obliterated. To not feel or remember God or Divinity. This is why I truly lament all of my mistakes.

A moment came in my life when I perceived everything that I had been doing to myself. A great tidal wave of remorse swept over me. I had found myself in such a profound state of suffering, yet I remembered. I remembered Gnosis, the teachings of Samael, the many books I had read so many years ago. Those moments of enormous pain were immediately transformed into moments of great courage and inspiration. Nothing in my life could ever be so painful, I told myself. I have seen what it is like to be in hell. I do not want to go back there.

It has been one year. Barely any time at all, yet when I look at who I was then and who I am now, there is no mistake in saying that I have changed. From a tiny seedling of willpower, I have cultivated something truly enduring and strong. I have dedicated myself to being a good person. Thanks to Glorian and all of those who have given me guidance, I have discovered within myself all of the tools I need to navigate each moment of life.

In this time, I have experienced such moments of incredible joy and serenity. Honestly, I have felt things that I have never felt before. For the first time in my life, I feel like I am finally opening my eyes. Everything has flipped around entirely. What I thought I liked or enjoyed I now find repulsive or a waste of time. What I avoided or hated I now have great appreciation for, such as the many great classical composers, artists, and writers. Within their works, I find an indescribable happiness that was never there before. Nature has become my one refuge, the one true place where I can find myself. Immersing myself within a deep awareness and walking through nature... there is nothing else like it.

But truthfully, it is not easy. Every single day I wake up with great resistance. My mind tells me that I will not succeed and some days I am faced with situations that I do not know how to handle. But yet, I always remember Gnosis. I always remember that the answer to all of my problems is to "know thyself", to be vigilant, and awake, and to see the truth of every moment for what it truly is.

To everyone out there, keep learning and keep practicing! Always revise your understanding and be persistent. It takes a great deal of effort to not let a single moment pass us by, but we need that courage and willpower in order to succeed.

It is hard to express just how much everyone here means to me. Thank you Glorian, and thank you to all the instructors and students out there. I would not be here without you.
9 years ago
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And he that searcheth the hearts knoweth what [is] the mind of the Spirit, because he maketh intercession for the saints according to [the will of] God.

And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to [his] purpose.

For whom he did foreknow, he also did predestinate [to be] conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brethren.

Moreover whom he did predestinate, them he also called: and whom he called, them he also justified: and whom he justified, them he also glorified.

What shall we then say to these things? If God [be] for us, who [can be] against us?
-Romans 8:27-31

Joyful in hope, suffering in tribulation, be thou constant in thy prayer.

Benedictis, qui venit in nomine Domini. Osanna in excelsis.

"Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord. Hosanna in the highest!"

9 years ago
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#3977
Accepted Answer
And he that searcheth the hearts knoweth what [is] the mind of the Spirit, because he maketh intercession for the saints according to [the will of] God.

And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to [his] purpose.

For whom he did foreknow, he also did predestinate [to be] conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brethren.

Moreover whom he did predestinate, them he also called: and whom he called, them he also justified: and whom he justified, them he also glorified.

What shall we then say to these things? If God [be] for us, who [can be] against us?
-Romans 8:27-31

Joyful in hope, suffering in tribulation, be thou constant in thy prayer.

Benedictis, qui venit in nomine Domini. Osanna in excelsis.

"Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord. Hosanna in the highest!"

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