Peace,
I am a single female, recently deployed overseas to a location where the men outnumber the women. During my time here, a part of my job is to communicate daily with my supervior's security detail. This requires that I communiate with his personal body guard daily. After meeting this person, and talking to him, i felt a very strong attraction to him immediately and i could not understand why or figure out how to control it. I though about him every day, at night, and first thing in the morning. I found him very easy to talk to and his personality seemed quite to my liking. I discovered that we also had simular interest. I learned that he was married and that made me feel a little disappointed to be honest, but on the other hand i told myself, that it was necessary to have boundaries in place. However, it didn't stop me from thinking about him. I literally felt like a teenager with a crush on an older guy... This is ridiculous thought to my-self... Why am I feeling this way?... Is it because I have not been in a relationship in the past 6 -7 years? I have actually been celebant for a very long time and I have not thought about how that has affected me mentally, physically or spiratually. Is this normal? I prayed about it and meditated on it, but i could not resolve or come to terms with the feelings I was experiencing.
Due to my lack of discipline in meditation and pranayama breathing, I could not remember or figure out what I should do in this instance... I would appreciate some advise on how to handle these emotions shoule the situation arise again.
Although I am past the age of bearing children, there are times when I feel as if I would like to have male companionship. Someone to talk to, travel with, and share common spiritual interest.
*** Can you tell me what the Gnostic's definition of marriage is? Please elaborate if you have time.
Thank you,
I am a single female, recently deployed overseas to a location where the men outnumber the women. During my time here, a part of my job is to communicate daily with my supervior's security detail. This requires that I communiate with his personal body guard daily. After meeting this person, and talking to him, i felt a very strong attraction to him immediately and i could not understand why or figure out how to control it. I though about him every day, at night, and first thing in the morning. I found him very easy to talk to and his personality seemed quite to my liking. I discovered that we also had simular interest. I learned that he was married and that made me feel a little disappointed to be honest, but on the other hand i told myself, that it was necessary to have boundaries in place. However, it didn't stop me from thinking about him. I literally felt like a teenager with a crush on an older guy... This is ridiculous thought to my-self... Why am I feeling this way?... Is it because I have not been in a relationship in the past 6 -7 years? I have actually been celebant for a very long time and I have not thought about how that has affected me mentally, physically or spiratually. Is this normal?
Due to my lack of discipline in meditation and pranayama breathing, I could not remember or figure out what I should do in this instance... I would appreciate some advise on how to handle these emotions shoule the situation arise again.
Although I am past the age of bearing children, there are times when I feel as if I would like to have male companionship. Someone to talk to, travel with, and share common spiritual interest.
*** Can you tell me what the Gnostic's definition of marriage is? Please elaborate if you have time.
Thank you,